Today is the last day for eating all the sugar. Next week I sign up.

I have a really bad headache. Make it go away. I need to go to the gym now.

I worked out really hard today. I'm very sore. Tomorrow will be even worse. I must push myself beyond the limits of normal men. I talked to the recuiter. It was good. soon.

It was something I often thought about, but mini dreams like that don't come true. It was sort of a good thing. Pushed me harder thenI have been pushed. So, I sat and watched. So stupid. It was like being flightless and watching the swan fly by. No matter how hard I try I can not fly ( Read more... )

I got enough but, now I don't feel lke doing anything. I still have to find a place to live.

Why was I built like this? Why did God make me small? I have fire, and spirit. It burns inside. I try so hard, to no avail. Why can I not be outside, the way I feel inside?

I looked. I knew if I did, I wouldn't like it, but I still did. Now, I can't get it out of my mind. I am nothing........

.....nothing.

I'm one step closer to a lot of things I want to do. It makes me kind of happy. I also feel a little of something else, because i'm one step closer to you, but I don't know what it is.

It never goes away. There is still that rage. That endless anger that I just can't subside. I don't really try anymore, cause I use it to push myself at the gym. He even said that I looked like a demon ( Read more... )

You can't hide from me. I will find you.

I'm leaving soon, and I don't think I will make it back.... in fact, I mean not too.

One more thing to do before I go.

I wait in the shadows..... he will know fear.