just another reason to add to the list. of how love doesn't exist.

mommy and daddy failed us and that might've hurt the most but when someone makes you believe again then rips away every chance of hope. maybe thats worse.

im starting to think that i like having this journal that no one reads. because now i can bitch and whine. and no one will ever know. but i dont want to bitch and whine. the fact of the matter is that i've been having mental breakdowns lately but it all has to do with the fact that, and i quote, "i don't wanna be here right now". It's amazing how ( Read more... )

Wow I am just remembering the last time i updated this one and it was after one of those really deep talks with katie. when we found out so much i think...i don't remember which one it was but i have a feeling it was that amazing one in which we criend. but anyway the point is if your reading this. your not one of my friends but have just read my ( Read more... )

Once again, I'm checking out what I used to think and looking back on a time when life seemed to be so easy yet so hard while I lived it. Looking back last year was much harder for me than anyone realized. Who knows what will happen next.

yes its finanlly friday. and right now im good. its so perfect outside!!!! and i think im gonna go see the day after tommorow. only thing that sucks is that i tried to get a bunch of people together and everyone was busy. o well guess good intentions dont always work out.

Felling like crap. not even. major crap. ahhh.......this sucks everything sucks. i've got so much freakin work to do that i dont wanna. looks like a freakin' thunderstorm is comin in. i wanna kill some people (dont underestimate me i am starting a hitlist at the very moment) and everyone is annoying me. worst part-for no reason. and i have a ( Read more... )

o boy o boy. so much crap to do for freakin school. this stupid research paper is killing me i can write it if i had about another month of time. and then there is stupid things that Espo + Papalia put on top of it. like all those stupid questions in social studies. and now we have an essay on those freakin books we read. i swear to god their ( Read more... )

hey its a day before i get to go to the potomac tourny for socccer!! wooohoo... millions of guys running around. lots with their shirts off. ill take mental pictures for you all lol. Well I get to miss choll and dissecting the cows eye!! yay. whoever the hell decided that we should dissect a cow eye is insane. and i would like to have a personal ( Read more... )

The Storm that Never Came ( Read more... )

This research paper sucks. Its made my whole freakin week fly by. Work Work and Work. no i have to do the research and get eighty million quotes to support me. grrrrrrrr....hopefully i can pull it together. then i have to do freakin math. why the hell am i signed up for all honors. do people really think i can handle that? i mean im already on ( Read more... )