[Yama fic] Forbidden Love (Part 28 Final)
Title: Forbidden Love
Pairing: Yama (Ohno x Sho)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, antiquity, angst, romance, friendship
Disclaimer: Purely fictional, for entertainment only
Summary: Prince Satoshi and Sho finally got to leave the palace. What would their fate be?
Part 28 (Final)
Nino
I never said I love him, but I really do. I forgot when did it start, just knew the feelings continued. It was not without resentment. This forbidden love, he could generously give to Sakurai Sho, but he and I always have this unbreakable wall between us. It wasn’t until that war that I finally understood. They were meant to belong to each other. No one can come between them! From that moment on, I have also made a decision. I will follow and support them no matter what the consequences would be. Just like what I had said to Satoshi-kun, I know what my path should be and I will not regret it.
I don’t know if this ending is considered good or not. Prince Jun…..no…..it’s His Majesty now! He really did what he promised Satoshi-kun, even though it was extremely risky, even though he would be damned by those who didn’t know the true circumstances. Three days after we left the palace, he forcefully seized the throne! The kingdom is his sooner or later. He did what he did so the old king had no chance to harm Satoshi-kun and others anymore. His ‘bad deed’ would be forever recorded in the history books, but we would also be forever grateful to him.
Masaki? Well, he is sleeping besides me! He is now a big helper to the king in protecting the kingdom from invaders. I travelled to many different places during these few years, practicing medicine along the way. Although I would never be an imperial physician again, I still don’t want to rust my curing skills. Sometimes I would stay in Masaki’s military camps, drink with him and attend to any sick or wounded soldiers. When he had a little too much to drink, he would say this outcome was what he’d expected all along. And he blamed himself for not able to stop the bad from happening. I feel like he is the most carefree person among us.
So what about Satoshi-kun and Sho? I still visited them from time to time, carrying a little guilt and sorrow with me. After the new king was enthroned, they changed their names and lived a quiet life. Satoshi-kun changed his name to Enomoto and Sho changed his name to Kageyama. Although this was just an act of self-deception, at least they fulfilled their promise to the new king! These few years they lived a simple life in a house they built in the countryside. It’s not even as big a study room in the palace, but it’s good enough as their love nest. Satoshi-kun hunt in the mountains and sold the prey in the nearby markets. Sho would stay home and do the household chaos. Actually Sho was not skillful in household chaos, neither was Satoshi-kun. Both of them were well taken care of by servants since the day they were born. Sho had to learn everything from scratch. But he is a stubborn person and wouldn’t accept failures. If he failed in his first attempt in cooking, he would try again and again and again until he was satisfied, didn’t care if he scalded his hands in the process.
What my guilt came from was that I couldn’t not completely healed Sho’s leg. Since that night, Sho’s leg, was crippled. He couldn’t even walk fast stably. I knew, he minded that, even though he showed a cool indifferent front. I can’t imagine, how hurtful this shortcoming would bring to a perfectionist like him. There were a few times when I quietly saw him dazing at his leg alone. Again and again he tried to walk normally, but again and again he fell and stood up. Although I knew he had bruises all over, I had to pretend I didn’t know a thing…..
Time passed day after day, year after year. I trusted they would love and take good care of each other, but I didn’t dare to go far. Just let me be your guard - quietly! I will not disturb you…..
Satoshi
That night, we sped in the darkness. Winds were blowing outside the carriage. Inside, Nino treated and bandaged up Sho's wounds. I held him tightly against me. He looked so weak and pale. It torn my heart apart to witness him wounded so badly because of me….again.
"Satoshi -- I am alright -- doesn't hurt -- " Sho kept murmuring this even though he was burning up more and more. I gently patted his back, hoping he would fall asleep.
That night, we could finally breathed freedom. We didn't know what's ahead of us, but we didn't care.....
"What?! His leg can't be cured?!" When I heard of this news for the first time, the bowl of medicine I was holding shredded onto the floor. But Sho smiled at me.
"So you don't want me anymore now that I'm crippled? See, Nino, why did you tell him that? If he really runs away, you have to chase him back for me -- "
"I won't leave, I won't go anywhere?! I will stay with you for the remaining of my life. Only you would want me knowing that I'm so dumb!" I forced myself to play along his joke. I knew he didn't want me to worry, but his heart must be aching so badly.....
The first time when I had to stay in the mountains for a few days to hunt, I had no choice but to leave him alone at home. He smiled as he saw me off. When I got home, to my pleasant surprise, I saw a table full of deliciously looking dishes! I looked at him in disbelief. Having been living together for a period of time, I knew very well that he is not good in cooking. So those dishes..... He didn't say anything, just keep smiling as usual. Later, I noticed that he was not willing to change even before bedtime and felt something was not right. I forcefully rolled up his sleeves and shockingly found many cuts and scalds on his hands and forearms! I held him tight in my arms with tears in my eyes…...
There's another time when I was hurt during a hunt and could not take the prey to the markets. But the preys would be stale in a few days and became worthless! While I was still worrying, Sho volunteered to go and sell the preys in the markets himself! I was not a bit willing to let him go but eventually gave in, as there was no better solution that I could think of. When he came back at night, I could clearly see signs of fells. He looked at me, smiling embarrassingly. He said he was so dumb and couldn't even walk properly. Luckily the preys were dead..... He was smiling, but my heart, was aching badly.
"What are you thinking about?" I was sitting at the porch looking back at what had happened during the past years. He came to my side holding some fruits in his hands and then sat down beside me. "The past had passed, just let it go. I don't think about them anymore, and so should you."
"I am thinking if you are happy now -- " He leaned closer to me and rested his head on my shoulder. "No matter what you think, I still feel that I am not good enough for you. You should have much more than what I can give you. You'd suffer if you are with me -- "
"Baka!" He gently smacked my head. "What more do I need to be happy? Let me tell you, I am already very contented, very happy! I can be with the person I love. We don’t have to pretend and hide our feelings anymore. And you can be the person you want to be without being on alert all the time. That’s more than I’ve ever thought I, we, could have. You are still blaming yourself, then how can we have true happiness? Let it go. Believe me, the definition of happiness is different for different people. I can't say that I don't have any regrets, but if you can feel in your heart what I'm feeling in mine, then I will be happy."
"You always say the right things, always think more mature than me -- "
"So?"
"So you can never leave me! You have to be with me forever!"
"Fine! I promise you. I will stay with you till your last living day."
"And thereafter?"
"You still care about thereafter?"
"What?! You will find someone else once I die?!"
"Well -- let me think -- "
"Sho! You -- "
"Fine, fine! I'm just joking! Then I'd be so old already, who else would want me?!"
"Ah -- wait! That's not right! If you're still not old then, then you'll find someone else?"
"Geez -- why are you so annoying?! Forget it, I won't bother!" Sho put the fruits in my hands and stood up.
I immediately put down the fruits and carried Sho in my arms, bridle style, before he could take a step.
"What are you doing? Put me down!"
"Oh no - you are not going anywhere without me - "
"I am just going to bed -- "
"Then you are going to bed with me!"
// The End
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A/N: Happy Ending! Yay! Sorry it took me so long to finish it. Thank you so much for all of you who followed this fic till the end. Hope you enjoyed it :)
Pairing: Yama (Ohno x Sho)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, antiquity, angst, romance, friendship
Disclaimer: Purely fictional, for entertainment only
Summary: Prince Satoshi and Sho finally got to leave the palace. What would their fate be?
Part 28 (Final)
Nino
I never said I love him, but I really do. I forgot when did it start, just knew the feelings continued. It was not without resentment. This forbidden love, he could generously give to Sakurai Sho, but he and I always have this unbreakable wall between us. It wasn’t until that war that I finally understood. They were meant to belong to each other. No one can come between them! From that moment on, I have also made a decision. I will follow and support them no matter what the consequences would be. Just like what I had said to Satoshi-kun, I know what my path should be and I will not regret it.
I don’t know if this ending is considered good or not. Prince Jun…..no…..it’s His Majesty now! He really did what he promised Satoshi-kun, even though it was extremely risky, even though he would be damned by those who didn’t know the true circumstances. Three days after we left the palace, he forcefully seized the throne! The kingdom is his sooner or later. He did what he did so the old king had no chance to harm Satoshi-kun and others anymore. His ‘bad deed’ would be forever recorded in the history books, but we would also be forever grateful to him.
Masaki? Well, he is sleeping besides me! He is now a big helper to the king in protecting the kingdom from invaders. I travelled to many different places during these few years, practicing medicine along the way. Although I would never be an imperial physician again, I still don’t want to rust my curing skills. Sometimes I would stay in Masaki’s military camps, drink with him and attend to any sick or wounded soldiers. When he had a little too much to drink, he would say this outcome was what he’d expected all along. And he blamed himself for not able to stop the bad from happening. I feel like he is the most carefree person among us.
So what about Satoshi-kun and Sho? I still visited them from time to time, carrying a little guilt and sorrow with me. After the new king was enthroned, they changed their names and lived a quiet life. Satoshi-kun changed his name to Enomoto and Sho changed his name to Kageyama. Although this was just an act of self-deception, at least they fulfilled their promise to the new king! These few years they lived a simple life in a house they built in the countryside. It’s not even as big a study room in the palace, but it’s good enough as their love nest. Satoshi-kun hunt in the mountains and sold the prey in the nearby markets. Sho would stay home and do the household chaos. Actually Sho was not skillful in household chaos, neither was Satoshi-kun. Both of them were well taken care of by servants since the day they were born. Sho had to learn everything from scratch. But he is a stubborn person and wouldn’t accept failures. If he failed in his first attempt in cooking, he would try again and again and again until he was satisfied, didn’t care if he scalded his hands in the process.
What my guilt came from was that I couldn’t not completely healed Sho’s leg. Since that night, Sho’s leg, was crippled. He couldn’t even walk fast stably. I knew, he minded that, even though he showed a cool indifferent front. I can’t imagine, how hurtful this shortcoming would bring to a perfectionist like him. There were a few times when I quietly saw him dazing at his leg alone. Again and again he tried to walk normally, but again and again he fell and stood up. Although I knew he had bruises all over, I had to pretend I didn’t know a thing…..
Time passed day after day, year after year. I trusted they would love and take good care of each other, but I didn’t dare to go far. Just let me be your guard - quietly! I will not disturb you…..
Satoshi
That night, we sped in the darkness. Winds were blowing outside the carriage. Inside, Nino treated and bandaged up Sho's wounds. I held him tightly against me. He looked so weak and pale. It torn my heart apart to witness him wounded so badly because of me….again.
"Satoshi -- I am alright -- doesn't hurt -- " Sho kept murmuring this even though he was burning up more and more. I gently patted his back, hoping he would fall asleep.
That night, we could finally breathed freedom. We didn't know what's ahead of us, but we didn't care.....
"What?! His leg can't be cured?!" When I heard of this news for the first time, the bowl of medicine I was holding shredded onto the floor. But Sho smiled at me.
"So you don't want me anymore now that I'm crippled? See, Nino, why did you tell him that? If he really runs away, you have to chase him back for me -- "
"I won't leave, I won't go anywhere?! I will stay with you for the remaining of my life. Only you would want me knowing that I'm so dumb!" I forced myself to play along his joke. I knew he didn't want me to worry, but his heart must be aching so badly.....
The first time when I had to stay in the mountains for a few days to hunt, I had no choice but to leave him alone at home. He smiled as he saw me off. When I got home, to my pleasant surprise, I saw a table full of deliciously looking dishes! I looked at him in disbelief. Having been living together for a period of time, I knew very well that he is not good in cooking. So those dishes..... He didn't say anything, just keep smiling as usual. Later, I noticed that he was not willing to change even before bedtime and felt something was not right. I forcefully rolled up his sleeves and shockingly found many cuts and scalds on his hands and forearms! I held him tight in my arms with tears in my eyes…...
There's another time when I was hurt during a hunt and could not take the prey to the markets. But the preys would be stale in a few days and became worthless! While I was still worrying, Sho volunteered to go and sell the preys in the markets himself! I was not a bit willing to let him go but eventually gave in, as there was no better solution that I could think of. When he came back at night, I could clearly see signs of fells. He looked at me, smiling embarrassingly. He said he was so dumb and couldn't even walk properly. Luckily the preys were dead..... He was smiling, but my heart, was aching badly.
"What are you thinking about?" I was sitting at the porch looking back at what had happened during the past years. He came to my side holding some fruits in his hands and then sat down beside me. "The past had passed, just let it go. I don't think about them anymore, and so should you."
"I am thinking if you are happy now -- " He leaned closer to me and rested his head on my shoulder. "No matter what you think, I still feel that I am not good enough for you. You should have much more than what I can give you. You'd suffer if you are with me -- "
"Baka!" He gently smacked my head. "What more do I need to be happy? Let me tell you, I am already very contented, very happy! I can be with the person I love. We don’t have to pretend and hide our feelings anymore. And you can be the person you want to be without being on alert all the time. That’s more than I’ve ever thought I, we, could have. You are still blaming yourself, then how can we have true happiness? Let it go. Believe me, the definition of happiness is different for different people. I can't say that I don't have any regrets, but if you can feel in your heart what I'm feeling in mine, then I will be happy."
"You always say the right things, always think more mature than me -- "
"So?"
"So you can never leave me! You have to be with me forever!"
"Fine! I promise you. I will stay with you till your last living day."
"And thereafter?"
"You still care about thereafter?"
"What?! You will find someone else once I die?!"
"Well -- let me think -- "
"Sho! You -- "
"Fine, fine! I'm just joking! Then I'd be so old already, who else would want me?!"
"Ah -- wait! That's not right! If you're still not old then, then you'll find someone else?"
"Geez -- why are you so annoying?! Forget it, I won't bother!" Sho put the fruits in my hands and stood up.
I immediately put down the fruits and carried Sho in my arms, bridle style, before he could take a step.
"What are you doing? Put me down!"
"Oh no - you are not going anywhere without me - "
"I am just going to bed -- "
"Then you are going to bed with me!"
// The End
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A/N: Happy Ending! Yay! Sorry it took me so long to finish it. Thank you so much for all of you who followed this fic till the end. Hope you enjoyed it :)