Its not hard to see where this comes from, but really I'm over people telling me to "chill out." I have such a hard time "chilling out" when so much needs to be done, and no one is helping me. I know my parents want to help me but the last week, go lord, my mother did nothing of the sort ( Read more... )

Its funny its been almost a month and its just the last 24 hours that I've had the hardest time dealing with my parents divorce. I'm not sure whats really triggered it. I guess its a combination of things. Its finally sunk in that I'm living with Joe not my family, and that "home" isn't there anymore. All of my stuff has been out of there since ( Read more... )

Its hard being alone at my appartment. If I didn't have Jynx, my pet cat I would be mooping around, heck I would probly be crying. I'm not totaly moved in yet, that will be tommorow and Tuesday. The next week I'm really going to need Joe's help to organize everything. My neibors above me have their moments durning the day when they are watching ( Read more... )

Its amazing how many mildstones I've done in the past year. I've done alot of growning as a person, and found myself. Its so funny, when I turned 18 last year I didn't feel like I knew who I really was, and didn't think of myself as an audlt, but now I defently feel like I can take the world on and come out victorious.

Recently I've been really secretive with my family and this weekend all of it came out. My parents know that I've got a credit card. That I'm really serious about moving out. They know I've found a place and been approved and I'm just waiting to graduate before I move out. My sister knows that I have hemophilia A and she might have it. It feels ( Read more... )

trying to finish school, work 32+ hrs a week, trying to blance my school work and my social life, trying to get everything ready to move out in June without alarming my family. Top it off is the hemophila type a news and my grandma's bloodwork coming back weird. They think her cancer might be back on top of everything and that she has a form of ( Read more... )

Got there Monday night- first trip to white castel(their okay ( Read more... )

Wow its been a while since I last updated. Things have changed, nothing major but this is/was the calm before the storm. The biggest change is my mentality and perpective on everything. I'm finaly seeing an end to high school and man am I ready ( Read more... )

"She thinks you where distant from everyone buy me."-that about sums up what the night was like. I mean at one point I felt I had her all wrong. That I was thinking it all up, then she starting "sticking to Joe like glue." I mean there really isnt' a way to discribe what she was really doing. But she was flirting with him and not her "boyfriend." ( Read more... )

I'm jealous because of your actions. Your speanding time with me, then someone calls you on the phone or in person and you live my side and huge them or talk to them. How do you think that is going me make me feel? Upset, hurt, and less special. If this was a one time thing and I reacted this way, yes i would agree that I'm over reacting. But I'm ( Read more... )