I've been making films for 16 years. In all that time, I've experienced about a 99.8% rejection rate of everything I've ever done. Now, after 5 long years of getting my latest film done, again the same familiar feeling, that same reenforcement of not being a part of the "club", that same collapse of all desire to do everything, to give up, energy ( Read more... )

As I'm falling asleep, in the cafe in Eminönü, I see the normal abstract images and images that I'm consciously trying to create/focus, when I have a nap and see hypnogogic dreams. Evetually the first real image takes over me, but it's a commercial, as if the dream is TV. It's an ad for a skin cream, just the plastic tube rotating in space with ( Read more... )

A state office somewhere, like a Noter, that's an apartment that's been turned into/being used as an office. I'm there wating in line next to the entrance of a small hallway to go in an office. On the wall is a small plastic plaque with a mounted small fake lion's head on it. It's not totally kitch, but strange. As I look at it, suddenly it starts ( Read more... )

Some place that's like Maine, summer-time but a little rainy, wet trees everywhere at the edge of gree fields, a small suburban town. We pass by a large building and go inside it. It's a huge gym-like building inside. A gathering of people are in something like a circle, but's it huge, of small tables. For some reason I understand and say to myself ( Read more... )

On a bride-like structure like the bridge at CalArts, but I know I'm in Istanbul. It's daytime. There are a few people around, it's a public place. I'm there with Yeliz. There is another dude, a friend, who is a bit away and talking with some youger kid (late teens, wearing a white shirt) They start to play around a bit, lightly wrestling, it seems ( Read more... )

On an airplane or similar. It's dark, but cool, dark silver and black interior, etc... I have a chance encounter with Winona Ryder. Later as I arrive in the dark rainy city, a view from the car/train/bus of an overpass near the city center, high rises, dark low clouds, rain, but a cool kind of dark/rainy. Later, in a house/strange place, yani it's ( Read more... )

1) At a lake somewhere, it's a summer vacation type of place... but a large lake, almost like a sea, no forest or mountains around that I can see. It's magic hour, the sun is setting over the water. People are out on the water. I realize it's the best time to take out a small canoe/kayak and have the desperate urge to do so. But where ever I look I ( Read more... )

Groups of people BASE jumping from really high cliffs somewhere over a jungle/forest... it seems too high, more like skydiving. I see things through a video camera.

Strange multi-layerd dream that is very hard to describe in words, but more understandable "cinematically". Several layers of concurrent images/scenes/events, with music and an additional sound layer, all of these things are simultanoues and understandable to me, even though I don't know how ( Read more... )

I'm both a spectator of, and a character in LOST (a character who doesn't exist in the real show). We are hiding in the dark woods at night in a square kind of hutch/hide, trying to spy on (I assume) the Others. In the distance a strange and distorted image appears, I draw attention to it. It gets closer and I see it's a group of figures on ( Read more... )