I'm not enough of anything to actually be classified as something. I'm not smart enough to be smart but I'm not stupid enough to be stupid. not fat enough to be fat but not skinny enough to be skinny. too pretty to be ugly but ugly enough to not be pretty. I have small limbs and am getting fat in places I never thought that I could get fat. ( Read more... )

I got a second interview for a marketing job that pays a lot more than I make now! And they are really excited about me! Finally I have a chance at something I actually want to do!

Andrew starts moving today! I'm so excited. I was starting to freak out just a bit because the time was drawing nearer and as soon as he moves it is harder to change our minds about living together. But now that the day has arrived I have no doubt in my mind that it is the correct decision. We will definitely have a full house, the two of us ( Read more... )

I think that Andrew may move in with me. It's kind of scary and exciting. I'm not sure that it would be any different than we are now. We are with each other ever waking moment we are alive and the only times we are not with each other is when we are either working or sleeping which would be the same moments if we were living together. We would ( Read more... )

Going to the hospital has really put life in perspective for me. I do really need to slow down and just be young and alive for a while. I have a year before I can go back to school and until then I should just really enjoy life for what it is and not be so ambitious to get ahead in a company I don't neccissarily want to be with after I get out of ( Read more... )

I hate feeling emo. It really makes me feel crazy. Dealing with my semi-fucked up self isn't any fun either. I don't neccissarily know what is with me today but I feel absolutely not myself and completely awful. I'm in run-away mode....just get in the car and go mode....keep driving until everything is okay an don't look back mode.

Andrew wants to take me out tonight. He is such a closet romantic. It really is quite humorous. And cute. Things in my life are coming back together. I really enjoy my new job and it really is wonderful to be able to walk to work. I would really like to reiturate the idea that there really isn't a more perfect place for me in the world than ( Read more... )

My dog died today. He was old and died in his sleep and I knew it would happen soon when I saw the state he was in when I was home for Christmas. But man, it sucks to have not been there for it. It still makes me so sad. He was MY dog! My puppy! My clydey!

I had a relatively wonderful day today. The sun was out for the better part of the day and I rode 4 miles with Andrew (mostly uphill as this city is nothing but hills). I have made a semi-committment, on the occasion that I can get work off, that I will ride the Seattle to Portland with him. That is a long fucking bike ride. We started training ( Read more... )

It's really strange when people my age are getting married and having children. I don't envy them in any way. It just makes me remember, that I am nowhere close to ready to be at that point with my life. And for that, I am thankful.