Soo. Chris is in Hawaii, and I got to talk to him for a couple of hours the last couple of days. It was nice. Good to converse with him. But at the same time, I know its only temporary. And when he gets into port next, he wont have his cell phone, and will be having to pay $2.50 per phone call plus $.50 a minute. We tried to talk about some things ( Read more... )

I know I am depressing, but its not my fault. I miss Chris so much. Its been a week, and I dont want to get out of bed. And I HATE MY GOD DAMN JOB WITH A BURNING PASSION. I hate baking and I absoloutly hate cleaning up after everyone! My boss makes it sound like its a privledge to get to be the last one out and clean up. Like she'll say "But you ( Read more... )

Its going to be 6 months untill I get to really talk to, kiss, hold, and even lay eyes on Chris. I really thought I was going to be able to hold it together at the air port. I was doing fine at first. We had a 3 hour lay over in Atlanta, and we ate lunch, walked around, cuddled. But then about 15 minutes before I had to get on the plane, I lost it ( Read more... )

Chris called me last night and I had no idea how depressed I really was untill I heard his voice. It was so great. Its only been like a week since I have talked to him and it was crappy. I was just laying there on the couch feeling sick and my phone rang and it was him. My spitits lifted. I am feeling better now ( Read more... )

Some times I hate the world. I thought this time would be different. I would make a conscious effort not to be so sad. But its not easy, and no matter how hard I try I just cant seem to do it. I cant just block out the world. That wont help. I have already found my self isolating myself, which is my stupid solution to everything. If I dont have to ( Read more... )

Well this is going to be short, because I have to go to work, and take a shower first. But I am back from Las Vegas. And it was really fun. Kinda hectic at times, but still enjoyable. I only wish we had more time. We only got to see about half the strip, and didnt get to do all the things we wanted to, but we will come back. We did walk though all ( Read more... )

Some times I question why I am doing all of this. I know that these classes I am taking now are not my favorite, and they are especially hard for me, just because I am not too good at memorization of straight up letters and numbers. I can do processes and deffinitions, but not how to name chemical compounds. But I get so discouraged, and I dont ( Read more... )

So, how exactly does one make hotel reservations for 1300 people ( Read more... )

I am going to Las Vegas. I am going to have to study my ass off the next few weeks. Wish me luck. Julia has also inspired me to get a facial piercing....

OK so I know that life isnt fair, but this is cruel and unusual. I am having to choose between the two most important things to me. I cant just ignore one or the other, and it doesnt really seem like there is an obvious right and wrong choice. Maybe it seems that way to other people, but I am getting no where on this. I can go to vegas at the end ( Read more... )