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Random Dream
So two nights ago, after watching the Girls Next Door (guilty pleasure) I dreamed that I was flirting with Heff. The girls weren't too happy about it, and I imagined kissing him which was akward. I also was asked to be a girlfriend, after which the girls were nice to me and we got along well. I definately felt the pressure of being #4 though. Weird ( Read more... ) -
Cracked out on Vicodin
So I'm cracked out right now and might as well update the people who actually read this on my weekend ( Read more... ) -
Free Living
I want to be a hippy and backpack around Europe. Or go to Tibet and deliver school supplies via bike (I read an artice about this) for 45 days. No more buisness classes please! UGH ( Read more... ) -
Body and Soul
So I went to see Dr. Sean Coughlin this morning. He is a soft tissue therapist/sports and injury rehabilitation specialist in La Jolla. It was really helpful to talk to him and hear his comments on what's going on with my shoulder and my hip. He agreed with me in that my shoulder problem is more likely to progress than get better, as he put it "If ( Read more... ) -
Desires
Unfortunately like all of you reading this, I'm human and I succomb to desires. The desire to procrastonate, as I am right now being the most prominant lately. I also have been indulging in my desire to despise people. Horrible, but true. Lately I've been getting a rush on being mean to others. I don't like it, and I'm not proud of it but it's true ( Read more... ) -
Update on Life
So January and February haven't been easy months. It was hard to be at home for as long as I was over winter break. My life is just NOT in Pleasanton anymore at all. Visiting feels like a waste 3/4 of the time. It's good to see my family (for a little bit) and its good to see certain people but other than my family I don't really feel like anyone ( Read more... ) -
Reiterations
So I don't mind going through the motions for what needs to be done with the shoulder situation but I do hate it when people #1 treat me like I have no knowledge of whats going on with my body, #2 don't at my chart before asking questions I have already answered, and #3 don't really bring up options or what to expect unless I ask about it ( Read more... ) -
dunno
So its 1:16 in the am and I don't know why but it's time to write an update. I saw Jenna this past weekend and that was really good, as always. I hung out with Miss Keri as well, and we played a round of drunk scrabble which I won (I didn't even go all crazy competitive on her either... I know, amazing ( Read more... ) -
Reality
Reality is created within our self. If we create our own reality shouldn't we be able to choose what as well as whom will affect us? I hope to have a strong enough will to do so. Staying focused and driven is a challenge. When people let me down, I let myself down or situations arent as I wish its up to me to choose what my reality will be. One of ( Read more... ) -
curious
I can't help wondering if it is normal for me to not be sad at all about moving from Santa Barbara ( Read more... )