My sister gave birth today.  A beautifil little boy, 7lb 1oz, 47cm long, thickish dark hair, very cute little thing.  Born via c-section at 1:46pm.  I am very happy for her that she has her little one in her arms tonight.

I feel like my heart is breaking.

I’ve been seeing a wonderful counselor for a few months now and we had another session a couple weeks ago in which we discussed some positives in my journey.   Having this journal and joining online forums has really helped in my healing and I thank all of you for sharing your painful stories.  No matter when I try to conceive again, my fears of “ ( Read more... )

Saw the Dr today, he said since its been 5 months, the perforation should have healed fine, my cycle seems to have settled down and we have the green light to come off the pill and try again! I asked about TTC straight off contraception and he suggested we wait 1 cycle to ensure the lining is a good one. I asked about my chances of MC again with ( Read more... )

One sleep to go...and although the Dr is tomorrow I am terribly scared he will tell us no and although I am hoping with all my heart that he tells me its ok to start again, im also terrified to get that news.  What if this all happens again with the next pregnancy?  I dont think I can go through all this again, im not that strong a person, people ( Read more... )

I recently stumbled upon an old journal that I kept years ago when I was with a previous boyfriend.  By reading it, I relived some painful memories and decided that if my one year relationship with a cheating, lying scumbag was worth writing about then some things deserve to be said about my currently almost 5 years with a REAL man.  We’ve been ( Read more... )