fuck you, you fucking bitch.

that's all i have to say right now.

 so last night i was playing beer pong with cassie and the gallon of wine blew up behind us. no, it didn't just shatter. it literally blew up. glass was everywhere. chunks of glass were stuck into the walls, red cups were slashed, one of my beers started leaking. everyone was shocked and confused. it sounded like a bomb exploded. the back of my leg ( Read more... )

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 on my walk home from school today some jesus freaks stopped me and wanted to talk about the church of latter day saints, they kind of freaked me out cause they didn't really take no for an answer so i said I'M NOT INTERESTED and ran into AS220 to get some tea ( Read more... )

i don't think i've been so confused in my entire life.

she made it down. it was a nice relief.

i still don't know what my problem is though.
i feel like i need to move somewhere or live in a box.

i miss her so much.
she gives me hope.
and that's exactly what i need right now.

my anxiety is so bad i don't even know.

i really hope she can make it down here tonight...

i  guess you should listen to your elders.
right?

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

i need to take a break from weed at least until i'm done with the research study. i really think i'm on the drug and when i smoke pot i get increased anxiety. saturday when i smoked with mel and sunday when i smoked with sam i experienced horrible horrible highs. i had most of the symptoms of a full blown panic attack. i couldn't sit still and i'd ( Read more... )