WEll what can I say... I wnet from feeling great to feeling like shit.. I am so confused ALL the time.. I dont even know who I am any more.. I have become so dependant upon other people.. its like I need them to make me feel good or happy.. And that shouldnt happen.. I should be happy by myself.. but I am not.. WHAT THE FUCK.. it just pisses me off ( Read more... )

Well ...where to begin.. I FEEL GREAT!!! For a long time I felt all sad and shit and depressed.. but for the first time in a long time I feel soooo good... WEll me and Marcos are no longer together to there is no pressure or stress or anything... He really doesnt want to be my friend either and I am ok with that... I do love him but if he want to ( Read more... )

Can someone tell me why he stopped caring for me??

What if...??

I wish that God sometimes wouldnt test us. It just seems that every time me and Marcos are doing well and everything is going good another obstacle seems to be standing in our way. We both screwed up in this one but I know that we will work things out because thats how our love works. He has been my rock and at times my hero. He has helped me with ( Read more... )

Well things arent that great...Me and Marcos got into a huge fight..I dont really know what is going on or what is going to happen between us right now...Things are just so terrible..I thought things were going fine but every time it seems that things go good something always happens to make shit go completely terrible...I found that Marcos put his ( Read more... )

I have been thinking about my aunt today..I dont know but when I woke up today I was sad and I saw her face..it was the first thought that I had today...I wish she could see me today..I mean I know she is looking down on me but its not the same..I guess its cuz I am selfish and want her here with me..but God has a purpose for every one..I just wish ( Read more... )

Me and Marcos kinda got into an argument last night..Tell me if I am over reacting..when we talk and he says oh I will call you back and then later when he doesnt call you call him and he picks up but is playing a video game...and then I think oh he would rather play the game than talk to me becuz if he wanted to talk to me he would have called ( Read more... )

Six flags was really fun and of course I knew that angie wouldnt say hello..she doesnt really like Marcos but I dont really care if she does I love him and that is all that matters. I am so proud of Marcos. He got on the Feris Wheel just for me..Now ever one who knows him probably knows he is deadly afraid of heights but I take pride in knowing ( Read more... )

WEll summer is almost over and the school is just aroun the corner..I am kind of sad that I fucked shit up for my self..but on a good note now I can see more of my family..but Marcos wont be with me..it seems that things between us are getting better..so I do think the distance has done us some good and sometimes it just plain old sucks...but some ( Read more... )