Yeah, so haven't written here for two years, I think almost exactly.  But now I am because I need somewhere to vent and I know that no one reads this so I may as well write it here as anywhere else.

First of all, what the fuck.  I put up with irresponsibility even though it's detrimental to you because I figure it's something you need to work out on ( Read more... )

So here I am, 3:00am on a Saturday morning, wondering where my life went. I held onto it so tightly for so long, desperately keeping up appearances and phone calls and get-togethers in a vain attempt to ad love to my life. Now I find myself unable to reach any of my "friends," not knowing where most of them are, and wondering if anyone would ( Read more... )

So I know I haven't really written since February. Too bad! I've been having way too much fun with my life. (Minus the sucky mono, which, finally, has gone away.) So the update on my life is: I am in love. With Lou. At the end of June, we'll have been dating for half a year. Somehow that number refuses to stick. It seems like I've known him ( Read more... )

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I've begun to realize that I see people as an ideal, and I sometimes miss the person they truly are. I forget the nasty details because they hurt me, and when I'm confronted by them, I realize that the canvas underneath the painting is not nearly as beautiful as the image that I see when I'm far away. So forgive me, and help me to come to terms ( Read more... )

I think I'm falling in love...

I hate men. I hate the fact that they are driven by sex. I also hate how most of my friends don't actually care about me. Some of them, even though they put effort into hanging out with me, would never understand some of my problems if I ever told them. They wouldn't want to. They would shrug and avoid the conversation, and go back to talking ( Read more... )

Happy New Years, y'all! At the moment, I'm gettin ready to go to a little get-together and drink myself to cloud nine! I borrowed my sister's pretty shirt and everything. Even put on makeup. Hennyway. Here's to the Class of 2005!!! WOOT!

I have a confession: I like country music. And right now my favorite singer is Mindy Smith. There, I've come clean ( Read more... )

(x) - you've done ( Read more... )