I feel so fucking lonely
I want to cry but I can't because i'm full of rugs that make me feel fake.
Why can't I go out there and have fun like all my other friends? Why am I mad at them? It's not their fault I chose the life I have.
I can't sleep becuase their laughter and loud music and drinking is keeping me up.
Maybe I need to move out

I ate alot today and it doesn't help that i'm gong to beat the clinic all day tomorrow which means they will feed me too. I'm just sick of lying to everyone and myself and I want to dissapear or escape somewhere where nobody knows me. I'm really hurt by the fact that I dont know whats really going on. Ednos is not good enough. I'm better than that ( Read more... )

hi so ill tell you abit about myself ( Read more... )