nothings changed. im bored and my back hurts. a lot actually. work sucked again as usual. tomorow i have no school and no work. this hasnt happened in a month. i am so excited. randomly i had a dream about ryan last night it was mad weird. sometimes i just want to call him. but i cant. and i wont. i guess maybe i just want to know if he ever thinks ( Read more... )

so it trurns out that my week isnt going to be as good as i thought it would be. my auntie ann died last night. she just turned 90. she had a stroke and that was that. it reminded me of russ. i miss him so much ( Read more... )

she made me promise not to forget about our plans today.
and i didnt forget.
my schedule was clear for just me and her.
ive only been wating 6 and a half hours....
she could still come
right?

i feel... lonely more than ever. and i dont know why. its really a not nice feeling. is it bad that i sitll think about him? i dont know i try to think about other people and i do but its the worst to know that all itll ever be is what i think in my head ( Read more... )

( It's such a shame how I'll miss you )

This weekend sucked ( Read more... )

Me summer and lauren went to fridays last night. told em it was my birthday and i had to stand up in the restaurant and got sang to and such. and i got free ice cream. and it was the bomb ( Read more... )

i got my lip pierced again... and now its complete... i should have pictures up asap. i suspose i should get sleep.

back to school tomorrow :(

i heart talking about boys <33333 it makes me happy and giddy.

people are unbelieveable and i hate them all.

p.s i want tony hawks american wasteland , thx.

im sick. i have to go to the doctors for 130. i didnt go to school today. and i didnt go friday because i didnt want to. i need to get my shit together asap and stop fucking around. jeeeeeeeeeeeeze. i feel like im dying or something of that sort. tonight = ultimate fight night k, thx. that makes me happy in my pants ( Read more... )