Hung out with Ben and Kelly pretty much all weekend. Friday got off of work, picked up a Paris guide book from B&N, came home chilled, went over to their place and Kelly and I had a great talk about life. Saturday, we walked to my place and then to target to get iron on t-shirt transfers. I also picked up hair dye and sunglasses. We got back to ( Read more... )

Today I decided after seeing that tickets were on sale to Amsterdam, to book them for early May. Umm yea.. I'm going back to Amsterdam and also to Paris with David. This is so unlike me to be so spontaneous. I charged everything to my credit card.. which has a substancial balance now. But I pay more then my monthly payments when they are due. This ( Read more... )

I'm back in NYC and don't want to be here. I realized how much I actually hate it here being abroad. Maybe it was just the people I met, maybe it was the fact I was on vacation, regardless NY is just repulsive to me right now.

Right now I am sitting in a really awesome boy's (David) room, enjoying coffee watching a canal out his balcony window. We're going to get breakfast in a bit with Lindsay at a cafe. It is so peaceful and quiet here. Everyone is so cute on their bikes, I wish NYC was more bike friendly ( Read more... )

I am falling in love with androgyny and how wonderful it is to fuck gender ( Read more... )

Fuck gender. fuck it hard up it's ass. I'm sick of being informed by verbal and nonverbal social scripts about which people to date and have sex with. I'm uncomfortable having to frequent gender segregated spaces which utilize a taxonomy of gendered bodies to find said people ( Read more... )

In the first 24 hours of being in Amsterdam I ( Read more... )

As much as I love porn... it just seems to make masturbation mechanical and boring.

The more I try to figure out who I am, the more lonely I have become.

I just saw a really interesting movie tonight at the IFC center. One scene made my jaw drop b/c it was so amazing.

Summary here: http://www.ifccenter.com/film?filmid=52854

I suggest you see it before it leaves if you are interested in queer cinema at all.