Tomorrow is going to be a month since I moved here. I am glad I moved. I am no longer home sick. I miss my mom though. Today while I was floating on my back in the ocean I started thinking about how much I have wanted this. I have wanted this for TEN YEARS. I have wanted to be by the ocean since I moved to Arizona. I feel very blessed right now to ( Read more... )

Finally stuck up for myself. Ugh. No one deserves to be called a dumb whore for giving your number to a guy. Especially when the guy calling you a dumb whore isnt your boyfriend!! Ugh that kid has issues.

Sigh............seriously. What the fuck is wrong with me right now. I have lost my pride.

Am I really that lonely?? Im going to put up with verbal abuse and still BEG for a second chance when I know what I did was in no way wrong. 
Fuck I have lost my mind.

I can't wait when the day comes that I learn how to control my intensity and emotions. Why do I ALWAYS get my hopes up so soon in a relationship? Fuck, we barely know each other and yet I can already feel it in my chest, that if this doesn't go the way I want it I will be having a weepathon. I am so god damn intense it drives me insane. I'm ( Read more... )

And THAT was exactly what I needed. A totally random camping adventure with a good friend, some good laughs and beer. And maybe a boy. Okay definatly a boy. But nothing will come out of that as usual. It's all good I had a damn good time. It hasn't even started either, tomorrow it's going down.

Well no throw up today(or yet), but I have had some bad nausea since about 4. Throats feeling a ton better though. Should be almost back to normal tomorrow. I really don't understand the nausea though. I woke up feeling totally good this morning, not really feeling stressed. I hope it ends soon.

The nausea has returned. Is this going to be a daily afternoon thing?

I stressed myself out so bad that I keep getting stomach aches and I threw up. That was a first for me, stress induced vomit. I'm starting to think that's why I have a bad sore throat right now. Which sucks because it only stresses me out more, how will I interview with this voice? I need to start hiking and meditating again. Actually I just want ( Read more... )

I'm already depressed. I want to go back.