after more than 3 months of going back and forth to the hospital they are now finally deciding to cut open my arm to check on my elbow and get the damn thing fixed... hopefully.... next tuesday Feb. 7 is D-Day, for my first operation ever. i fucking hate this already.

.. and i feel like shit ( Read more... )

long time since i've written in this thing... let's try and see what's happened lately ( Read more... )

i broke my fucking elbow at work last friday falling on it. my complete arm is in a cast. it took them about 6 hours in emergency to take xrays and give me a cast and something for the pain. why they call it "emergency" i don't know anymore. i have to go back in on friday for more xrays to see if they have to operate on my elbow to get it fixed or ( Read more... )

CAN'T LIVE WITH THEM, CAN'T KILL THEM....

what is a dude supposed to do huh...

... now that is how i'm feeling. i hate being fucking frustrated and not being able to do much about it. i need some way to get my anger and frustration out of my system again and right now i can't find any good way to do just that ( Read more... )

this is what a friend of me had to say about me:

"My friend Koen is really smart. And a nice guy. Why is he single ladies? eh? Sometimes i wonder about the female population."

May, you're not the only one who's wondering about that lately :)

you have 2 options.

1. kill me.
2. fuck me.

seriously, I can't take this shit no more.

this one is just to shout out a big FUCK THE WORLD. I feel like smashing my fists through brick walls just to get the frustration out of my system. It's time my band gets going so i can get on stage, scream my lungs out and get shit out in a positive way. If that doesn't happen soon i'm seriously gonna lose it and end up hurting people that don't ( Read more... )

i just noticed my last entry was on march 13th. damn time flies when you're having fun. that's why i haven't updated this thing ( Read more... )