I feel so....sad? I guess that's the word. maybe overwhelmed. depressed. worthless. irrelevant. misguided. inadequate. invisible. avoided. replaceable. useless. pitiful. awkward. uncomfortable. tossed aside like an unwanted toy. helpless. bypassed.
I really need to talk more. I need to express myself better, more frequently, and completely. I've ( Read more... )

so. I was reminded of this thing's existence again the other day. a little about what's happened in the past four or so years...
I'm still working at the er. I bought a house in 09. still driving my 00 protege that I got in 03. now dating a wonderful guy by the name of keith. we've been together a year and some months. we have definitely had our ( Read more... )

sometimes I feel like I can't do anything right. I can't even screw something up right. I feel like I'm losing everything. I guess in a way, I am. no matter how hard I try, how positive a person I am, how much determination and ambition I have, nothing works out in the end. of course it's not 'the end' per se, but it seems like I'm never going to ( Read more... )

life is a steady ticking clock
time slipping constantly away
aging even as seconds pass by
hair once brown turns now to grey
sitting, wasting the twilight hours
contemplating all my yesterdays
mistakes, chances, risks, regrets
choices brought me to today

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I really have a problem with forgetting all about this thing. Really, I do. I guess myspace has overtaken my life? Well, not my life, but my internet blogging or whatever you wanna call it. How's everyone been? I've been well. I work in the emergency room in Vicksburg now. I love it. Been there almost two years. Registration. I'm going to ( Read more... )

When overtaken by sadness and pain ( Read more... )

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