meow. poppas funeral was... ...funeral-ish. cried alot. the men of the deeps sang. and every member of the family.. cried. it was sad. then after that... ...i cant remember. lol. i went in and bought flowers for my two grandmothers. then petrie came down and we rented a movie. anchorman. it was hilarous. then yesterday wendy and brian came down. ( Read more... )

well.. i got a cell phone for christmas. um. the sims 2. cruel intentions. kill bill 1&2. 13 going on 30. the santa clause 2. e.t.. lots of clothes. lots of money. face stuff. pillows. luggage (i took that as a hint..) deoderent. shampoo. daughters pride ring. a necklace. movie money. lots of other stuff. meh. christmas was ok. we went down cheryls ( Read more... )

loaded to shit on christmas eve at three in the afternoon. i cant deal with all this fucki hurt. willenas sistr fed me bailys and beer. im loaded to fucking jesus. im about to pass out. and my stomach hurts so bad. last night was fucked. i didnt sleep in two days. only four hours or somethng. i dont know what else to say. goodbye.

umm

my grandfather died today. at ten to eleven. i was there. he looked so peaceful. but i wish i could have spent more time with him. im so scared for my mother. shes so broken hearted. so is nanny. i have to go

christmas fucking sucks.

im sitting here at 3:03am, crying histerically.. because i wrote this email to him. hes going to need so much fucking therapy. actually, you know what.. FUCK HIM! HE BROKE MY FUCKING HEART! I HOPE HE ROTS IN THE FIREY PITS OF HELL. ...on with the email then ( Read more... )

i like boys

two of them

called tyler and donald

they like me too

donald asked me out on thursday.. and i took a panic attack. whats that tell you?

i dont think im ready for dating yet

but i AM ready for sex

..i need a fuck buddy.

went to the mall thursday and friday got everyones christmas presents bought. finally. weekend sucked. willen and andrew ditched me, so i just dont care anymore. ive had enough of that bullshit.

i dont care for christmas anymore. my grandfathers in the hospital and everything fucking sucks. i hate everything.

i dont even know why im writing. i got depressed when i saw his nick on messenger. it wasnt anything that should have upset me.. but somehow, some way.. it did. ...so i deleted him. id never go back with him, and we didnt even have anything that special.. i dont even know why it upset me. i guess i just wish that he was miserable without me. and i ( Read more... )

its eleven days till christmas. where the hell did all the time go? i have no gifts bought. its fuckin insane. petrie is here now. we're eating pizza and talking. i missed my petrie. hehe. im so happy, and i dont know why. nothings going right, but im happy.

me and petrie are going christmas shopping this week. anyways yeah, we're going for a walk, ( Read more... )

um.. on wednesday night, melissa called me and told me that steve broke up with her and stuff, so i told her to get a cab out here and i would pay half the taxi fair.. so i gave the dude ten bucks when they got here, and we went on the computer for a bit, then went to bed and watched law and order. then in the morning, i took her to school with me ( Read more... )