i miss you

I think i had let everything that happend with Chelsea get the best of me.I let all the horrible feelings,memories,thoughts, and everything inbetween get the very best of me.Ive been so scared and tainted by the past, it made me so unaccepting of the future ( Read more... )

I love FFA ( Read more... )

i had a freakin weird dream last night too ( Read more... )

thats it,im done,i cant do this anymore...even if i wanted to ( Read more... )

i never thought i would have to say the prayer,the prayer i said over and over again when chelsea had her accident,i never thought i would ever have to repeat those words ever again ( Read more... )

So its the last day of summer...and it doesnt even feel like it.It feels like i was just at school on friday,this summer has gone by sooo fast.This has honestly been a...fucked up summer.and i mean fucked up in the worst,but yet best way ( Read more... )

I honestly dont know how im going to keep this up.The past two days have been really really hard.Im in denial.I know I am.It just feels like i havent talked to her in two weeks...thats it.But once i set it in my mind that shes gone...i completely break down,fall apart..colapse..from the inside out.Ive never lost someone before..and the fact that ( Read more... )

How do you say good bye?
How do you let go?
Why?
Why?
Not my Chels...not my Chels
This shouldnt have happend
Not my Chels
Pray, Pray for her and her family.
Keep her in your hearts

words cannot even begin to describe how loney and empty i am

So,this friday..at 7 30 in el morning,im leaving with mrs lapka to go suprise chelsea at camp ( Read more... )