Fuck this.

New name. New Journal.

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I just realized, I am still using the nickname and anniversary date from Brandon on this thing. AND to top it off, he called me today. And we talked for about an hour and a half. Actually talked. It was kind of nice... I think. He was very nice and everything. He even apologized (again) for being suck a dick to me while we were dating. I don't know ( Read more... )

This dream was so realistic, I woke up this morning thinking I had to write a note back to Brandon. I almost grabbed a notebook... Yeah. Well it started with something about my Dad and I having to drive to some dealership separately, I was to follow him. Somehow I ended up next door to Brandon's house and it was like spring/summer. I see Bri, his ( Read more... )

Well I just read all my entries in this journal and all the ones on my old account, CrzySwimminGurl. Wow. I used to live in hell! LOL. I can't believe how much better things have gotten since Brandon left me. THANK GOD for that. But no matter what I do, he keeps popping up in my thoughts... I hope its just because I spent alot of my last 2 years of ( Read more... )

So... I CHOPPED my hair off (okay so my Mom actually did, but I told her to!). It's up to my chin. Yeah. SHORT!! But I like it, and a lot of people say it is very cute. It's so bouncy! Very different feeling for me. I have had it this short before, but my hair was in horrible condition.. and it wasn't all that great. But now.. wow. I really really ( Read more... )

10 days to 4 years ago ( Read more... )

I think I'm feelin' better, but I've noticed something... I get WAY more comments on the depressing/pissed off entries. Oh well lol. I don't care ( Read more... )

So... yeah. I'm not sure I understand how my mind is working right now. I feel miserable and happy at the same time (but the happiness isn't showing through anymore). I don't know what I am doing day to day and I find myself thinking in terms of day-by-day and that gets me thinking of how quickly the day that I am going to die is comming. Days seem ( Read more... )

This sucks. Every little thing is getting to me! I really hate it because I never know what is really going on and I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I've got so much reading and homework in my classes it's ridiculous. I've got enough laundry for probably 5-6 loads. I miss my boyfriend like crazy, and that is only going to get worse. My roommate ( Read more... )

Okay. I think I'm losing my mom to alcohol.

And I have no idea what to say to her.