Such a pain, a pain that I'm used too. Yet always unbearable.

Wish I could hide how I feel, mask my emotions

Can only take so much.

After a certain point ill lose my patience.

:on a side note, seems no matter how hard I work I can't get ahead. Working just to stay alive, and barely at that.

'Its a 2 way street' ??

Bullshit, its not, hasn't ever really been. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you right? Yea that seems like the right way, too bad it doesn't always work out like that.

Fuck this. Get pissy over little shit I don't give a fuck. If I did it to you? You'd be shitting right now. So whatever.

Maybe I expect too much, but when its something I would do without hesitation, is it wrong to expect the same in return? always feel like I'm going uphill, always have to push and work just that much harder ( Read more... )

She told me to get over it. Funny, because I thought I was trying pretty fucking hard ever since I found out. Maybe she doesn't realize how hard it is for me, maybe she doesn't see the pain in my eyes, see how empty I feel at times..and constantly being reminded through songs/shows on tv etc doesn't help, even casual conversation leads me to ( Read more... )

got my car ( Read more... )

Another night out, another night wondering is this what its supposed to be

Why does this feeling always come, why do I have to fucking think like this

Need to make some changes, a few sacrifices. Need to get serious and get my shit together. One step at a time.

Its not her, its me. How can I trust another when I don't trust myself?

Time to get a car...learn manual and get a 2009 mitsubishi lancer GT? Who knows.

That's black this is whie, I'm a shade of grey