I must apologize to you all that I've been nothing more than a specter as of late. I am truly sorry I haven't been around long enough to really spend time with you all and catch up. I just hope you all know that I am here... and you all have my cell number should you ever need to talk to me.

I feel as if the past month just flew by - in a good way ( Read more... )

Yep! I'm still here and kickin! Just been swamped with work and school... I have a feeling it's going to be like this for a loooooooooong time ( Read more... )

Happy New Year. Can you believe it? 2007 already. 2006 seemed to just carry on forever. With it, came much sorrow, much pain. I had fallen deeper than I ever have in my life, slipping back into the darkness and allowing it to consume me ( Read more... )

I do actually. I'm sure Ty will agree with that one right about now... as would a lot of people now that I think about it ( Read more... )

I close my eyes and lean my head back. The gentle patting of water on my face is so comforting. The rain has not stopped here for two days, unusual weather for this time of year in Chicago. Last night and the day before I've almost reached the point of no return in depression. The rain has begun to erode the layers of corruption that consumed me. A ( Read more... )

3rd time I've tried and all I did was leave a scar... and fuck up my stomach ( Read more... )

I can't fail this time... If one method fails me, the other 4 set up will surly kill me in it's place.

Goodbye everyone

The hardest part is letting go. I've said that before, I'm sure. I've been stuck for so long in you and honestly, it's because of you. My heart just won't let me move on from you... and I hate it now ( Read more... )

I've thought a lot about where my life is going, if I'm happy or not, what I would really like to do, etc. It seems that I really hate where I am right now. I think about it and I actually just start to cry. I wish I knew why really. I have a few ideas but no real, solid proof of why I am so depressed ( Read more... )

Ah the women in my life that have hurt me. Out of all of them, only one has really apologized sincerely to me for what she's done. And to you, Caroline, I must say, thank you. At least I know that some women in the world have hearts.

To the others: Alma, Olivia, Jennifer, Irina, Kim, Kimberly, Erika... Rot in hell.