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I have so much excitement and I can't say anything and it's driving me crazy.

I'm moving out of my parents' house and in with my boyfriend that I've only been dating for 5ish months. Yeah, and I know how badly I am judged for it.  BUT, I've always referred to him as one of my best friends since we were 14 or 15, and now we are 20 and in a much different type of relationship than we were.  Sometimes I get nervous thinking ( Read more... )

And a month later, I think you're a fucking self-centered asshole. My rose-colored glasses have been removed and broken. You're scum.

I don't think about you too often anymore. There are no hard feelings; we are both happy in our new relationships.  At least I don't have any hard feelings.  But, sometimes you randomly go through my mind.  I'll think of a funny memory that we had, or I'll tell a story that involves you in it just because you were in my life for a good bit of time ( Read more... )

HAPPY.

The only way that this is easy for me is that he is not here.  Not having to see him is making this so much easier. I tell myself that even if we were dating, I would be doing the same things throughout my day.  And, I'm not constantly worrying about what he is doing, who he is with, etcetcetc.  Although, I do at random times think to myself "I ( Read more... )

i'm lonely.

i'm tired of my mom being so stand-offish and mean to nick. i don't know what he did to her, but anytime i speak of him, she tunes me out and completely ignores me. she ignores him when he's around too. i don't get it. a couple months ago she was complaining about how her and my dad "don't know him" and "he's never around." the reason i never bring ( Read more... )

this has been one of my favorite summers, by far. i'm sad to see it coming to an end, but i'm ready to bring on the new school year and the challenges of this long distance relationship. i've spent some really great time with nick, and we've grown even closer together, which is sweet.  it's all just so bittersweet ( Read more... )