It appears I've been neglecting this the past couple years. It was hard enough to get away from the attention tonight to get back here. Still, bound and determined as I always am, I managed to make it back here. Here I sit, an hour from the edge of the year, and ready to sit quietly and reflect ( Read more... )

Here's a special edition. Normally, I ignore this thing save for the end of the year as a sort of wrap up. If I get a writing bug, I might vomit an entry or two and then forget. I have other outlets for that now. I'm wasting time. Let's get into this ( Read more... )

It's night and I'm siting on the edge of a dock under the stars. I wanted to capture this moment in words while it was still happening. This entire weekend has been one of self-reflection. I devoted as much time to myself as I could and didn't spend as much time tending to diversions as I could. I just wanted to clear my head a bit. I think I ( Read more... )

What the fuck? What the fuck? What the fuck? What is happening to me? I should be past this by now, but apparently this part of me has just been dormant for years. The stoic begins to squirm. I'm starting to drive myself mad with it. I'm regressing to an old form, one giddy with possibility. One eager to see what comes next. My heart is ( Read more... )

Man, where to even begin. Clearly I haven't kept up with things. And there are so many things to keep up with. It's been a week since I last hunkered down in the room with nothing in it and spill my guts out a little. I've actually been a bit busy. Quite a few invites to my friend's house to hang out and play games or just bs about anything. One ( Read more... )

Here I am, back at it for my second day. It's quieter and colder in here today. I can barely hear any traffic. I can't hear the neighbors. I'll try to keep my feet tucked under my legs a little tighter tonight, but that'll be a bit more difficult. My calves have been worn raw from wearing boots all day. They'll need time to heal, time I'm not ( Read more... )

I'm trying something new tonight. The room that used to be assigned to carrying the junk of my former roommate and girlfriend has been completely cleaned out. There is no furniture in here at all. Nothing hanging on the wall. As of right now, all that's here is a lava lamp in the center of the room and myself sitting beside it on my iPad typing in ( Read more... )

It's been over a full week since I walked away from her for the last time. I tried to make it a nice ending. I was as sweet as I could be, tried to make her comfortable one last time. The damage has been done, clearly. She wanted nothing to do with it. My parting words to her were, "good luck," as she rambled on about dreading a drive through Utah ( Read more... )

Well boys and girls, this is it. I've neglected this for over an entire year. This is tradition, and one I sorely missed fulfilling last year. That shouldn't be a problem anymore. Here it is, my year in review ( Read more... )

I fear this will be a case of too much too soon, but I want at least some of this to stick. I've been disgusting myself with my growing corpulence for weeks now. I return from my work and do nothing. Even most of work itself has me doing very little physically. One of my saddest revelations came today as I was driving. This year is the 10-year ( Read more... )