I feel like shit right now. Why do i possess so many damn flaws? I tried so hard 4 yrs ago to change my bad qualities and I have almost nothing to show for it now. My family things that I'm stuck up and that I will end up being a failure like the everyone else is in my family. They think that im full of myself, that all i care about is myself. And ( Read more... )

I am ready for a drastic change. I can hardly believe i still have a year left to deal with this! Nothing ever changes, ever... nor do people. But why should they? I think what i want and need right more than anything right now is to just be set free from any type of social binding with other people. I don't want any close friends, i dont want a ( Read more... )

I am just waiting and waiting until the day I can leave Jacksonville and go to Gainesville and start from scratch. I'm way overdone on the whole high school scene. I want a new life away from everything I'm use to here. I regret not graduating this year. Instead, I now have another year and five months before I can leave. Things were going pretty ( Read more... )

dying.. slowly dying

It's really strange to me how he can act so perfect at some points, and then sooo far from perfect at others. Is there such a thing as a guy that is actually just like even 90% Great? ..He can get so deep under my skin sometimes... times when he does such idiotic things that boys do and then doesn't even realize what he's doing wrong (no matter how ( Read more... )

My Sisters coming home next weekend!! :]

Few people actually KNOW exactly how happy that makes me!

Its funny to me how quickly things can change, it really is. It seems like nothing in my life ever stays the same... theres always drastic changes occuring. I think they're mostly only drastic in the beholder's eyes though. A month ago I was so excited because I finally had a group of girlfriends who all got along real well and we had SO much fun ( Read more... )

My knees start to shake ( Read more... )

Well, school started back up again last week. It hasn't been too bad so far this year.. but i guess that COULD have to do with it only being one week so far :]   ...all my classes are really boooring for the most part, but what can ya do?  Im really really lookin forward to finally getting my license at the end of October.. im most definately gonna ( Read more... )

I was laying in bed tonight and I couldn't sleep as much as I tried because I kept thinking about a million different things. One of which was thinking about all the people my age who I've known or heard of dying. It's been on my mind a lot lately and I've been thinking about how much I need to live life while I can because it can happen to me at ( Read more... )