Here I am where we last left off distressed about life, unsure that I am making the right decisions for everything.   I'm not sure that I'm meant to be happy ever.  The minute I find someone that I believe I'm happy with they start to push me away.  The first we were too young, too serious.  this next I'm not sure cause here we are falling to ( Read more... )

so do i take a chance and let myself go unprotected or do i keep on as i have been, not  at my 100%, but happy.  i've been hurt in the recent past. .  it gives me butterflies to think about this when it does and i'm happy.  but then the injuries of my recent past flash through my head haunting me.  i've tried my best to pull my self back together ( Read more... )

well its been a few weeks since the last post, much has happened and it seems my dream to live out in phoenix might actually come true.  I found some great connections to asu and they seemed optimistic in helping me get in for the fall.  if not i am probably going out there anyways, either that or florida.  but i am not really in the mood to write ( Read more... )

So I started a new job last week and I love it! I am so happy there, the people are really really nice and the boys are really hot. My hours are random but its so much fun.  It feels really good to not have to drive 2.5 to work anymore.  the only problem is now I think I have stress fractured my foot and I can hardly walk today I have been standing ( Read more... )

Well I came home tonight and I didn't want to watch any tv cause it sucks and there is usually only reruns on anyways.  So I turned on some tunes while i was chatting with some friends and john mayer came on so I turned off the random and i have to admit I never thought I'd be saying this he's pretty relaxing.  I find it weird because I used to ( Read more... )

Life is good!  All the bad people that have been in my life have left and I could not be more content.  I have people telling me how good I look, how much of a better person I am, and how happy I always am now that I am more or less on my own.  I have potentially found a job that could take me to high places fast.  Amazingly I have been called an ( Read more... )

ok it's been since Feb since I've been in here obviously a little busy in the last year i have had 12 classes between jan and august so 36 credits. yea needless to say i've been working my butt off.

ok so the real reason for me coming back here was because i needed to get this off my chest.

Everyone keeps getting the wrong idea about me even my ( Read more... )

Yea so I have been doing lots of thinking lately and I have come to a few conclusions. I am super psyched for phoenix and really hope it comes through even if it’s not right away. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, but well I once heard someone say how the hell do you expect us to make the decision of what we want to do for the rest ( Read more... )

So yea its been a while since i have been here, sorry. So busy. i have 6 sociology classes and an ass raping load of reading and work. I also have a myspace blog that there might be an occassional update on there a little more often or maybe some fun things to read. The is all for now. catch you later!

I just don't know how I feel anymore, except that I feel I know nothing....