Today = depressing ( Read more... )

Being content with my recent past, my grades, my body especially is almost uncomfortable for me...as wonderful as it feels. I'm scared everything's gonna switch up on me and I keep having to remind myself that the only thing with power in this situation is me. I am in control. I have tried to prove this to myself all year long by studying hard and ( Read more... )

This summer I've aged 20 years. I've become a busy office worker who starts the day with a hearty balanced breakfast and ends it watching recorded episodes of Oprah. I've even began using/responding to phrases such as "Is it friday yet? Oh Jeez." and "Well listen, whatever works for YOU." I spend a majority of my day with Carole, Nancy, and Bonnie ( Read more... )

I feel alive again. I felt like I was wasting away the past couple weeks and now I'm fuckin back in business baby. My heart is beating so fast. I knew just needed to drink again. Oh alcohol, how you rile me up in the kindest way. I am sad the year is over. I am sad certain relationships of mine are ending the way they are... but i am happy to be ( Read more... )

I feel like I havent lived in like 5 years. I'm secretly still 14, waiting to be kissed.

If you knew me at all you would know that I am always right. ALWAYS.

I'm feeling intensely lonely today. Really let down by having to do the right thing for myself. I need someone who can love ME, who can appreciate what is unique about me, who is interested in the weird entangling roles I played in the past that have contributed to the identity I define myself by today... whatever that is. I need someone who is ( Read more... )

"I've never looked better and you can't stand it."
- Panic! At the Disco
I just stole that from anna's quote wall... I feel little remorse. I want to shout that quote to like everyone in my life right now. I like to pretend I am just too fabulous that's why no one sticks around.

I dont know why I still feel the temptation every time I drink to get wasted beyond belief and blacked out. I think it is so I dont have to worry about anything. I know if I have 5 or 6 drinks I'll definitely be drunk and good, and I always have the most fun when I'm like that... but it's hard to stop. I'm sick of being out of control though and ( Read more... )

Could I be ANYMORE stressed out?!?!??!??!