As much as I've tries to put it to the back of my mind and reguard the feeling as minuscule -- I can’t seem to get passed the thought that I’m not a factor, that they could care less if I just disappeared.  I know that He, the most important factor, would care, but they are such a prominent part of his life that their not caring for me hurts and it ( Read more... )

I'm not very good at "Poof"ing can you show me how to "poof"?

I'm burnt because the sun came out to play and it didn't play nice.

Also the trees are starting to bud.  I LOVE spring, everything comes back to life, including me and that is my favorite part.  I'm alive again and all the sun makes me giddy, I don't even know how to explain how much happier I am in the spring and summer.  I do know I look cuter ( Read more... )

Next week I'm going to find a good library and move in.

No I'm serious!  For the past two weeks every time I've sat down to do homework I've gone to sleep instead... No joke... I'm getting a little irritated at myself.. SO right now I'm hopped up on Starbucks and I'm working on like 10 things that need to be done by Monday. And since I want to NOT ( Read more... )

Seven people update.  And I'm probably not going to keep doing so, so I'm not including myself in that statement.  I'm far too busy to do this whole update thing. heh.. "Well Candise if you are so busy, why are you updating now?"  That is a very good question you are asking Mr. invisible person man.  Chris told me he started updating so I read his ( Read more... )

I normally don't like the whole wicker thing with shoes but these shoes need to have my babies!

Betsey Johnson

I think I'm going to start doing my hair poofy again.. I miss the volume.  

"How do you sleep at night?" My mother asks me, seeing my bed coved in homework and clothes and all sorts of other things.  For months now that’s all I have been doing, I've allowed myself to be consumed by school work and I've thrown aside my own needs; my need for time with myself.  I don't understand myself, how could I, Candise, the one who ( Read more... )

I don’t like the way this smells
something’s not right
I don’t like the way this feels
bumpy not smooth
I don’t like the way this tastes
bitter and too sweet
I don’t like the way I’m seen
unhinged and out of control
I just don’t,
but I want to.
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They may not be long or good or even spelled correctly but I'm really happy I'm writing again.  It's a good thing; it's the truth.

I’m resisting tripping
fast talking is failing
I say what I mean
even if you don’t understand what I say
You’re facts are misplaced
get ready; get set
to face it

Exert: I live my life week end to week end; day ( Read more... )