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Ha. Haven't been here in awhile. I def. need some new shoes.

I truely am a sociopath. Work and school. Just do yoga- you'll be cured. i swear.

Sometimes I wish I were dead. And then I realize that I am already. When i look in the mirror i see nothing but the blank deadness staring back at me. I feel nothing, really. To say I'm sad, would be the same as saying I'm happy, or a watermelon. Its all relative. I can't leave the house in confidence. I can't imagine anyone wanting to touch me, ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if we all fail this much, or if its just me. I've lost pretty much everything I valued. I just can't stand myself, i don't want to burden people with my insanity. I don't want to hurt anyone I care about, but i have. Please believe I never intended to. I never wanted to hurt you guys, i have the best memories with you and I wish ( Read more... )

Like she really thought a knitting needle was going to take him down? Seriously. Of that throwing the knife off to side was a a safe bet.

die die die, my darling.

I had a dream last night that my co-worker poisoned my food and raped me. Yeah, I know.

I can't look at him anymore. ha.

School.work.school.work.school.work.school.school.work.school.work.

I'm still kind of seeing Him. He's the only one who knows I'm alive. I'll be 21 soon, and at least he'll be there to bring me down where I should be.

Sometimes I think none of us has any right to be happy. Ever.

My life is a mess. They're are some that I'd do anything for a bit of attention from, so I try to compensate the kind of attention I really want from people I don't care about. They're just there so i have some kind of interaction with humans.

Sometimes I wonder how it all came to be this way.

Sometimes I just feel like crying just because. Just to break down sometime and cry. For a lot of reasons. I can;t pay for the school i got accepted to, i just can't. Not with all the loans, not with grants, or any of that crap. My parents won't help me, and I don't blame them, I should be able to handle this on my own but I don't make enough money ( Read more... )

I can't talk, it hurts. The devil's in the cat and the baby's brain. So broke up with "him," at least for now. And there's this other guy, whom i went to school with, but its so akward. It feels like kissing my brother. That is, if i had a brother ( Read more... )