It's times like this that make we wanna give up completely. Nothings changed, everything is still the same. once again effort for nothing. i just can't make it. theres no way. just kill me off now. theres no fucking point. i'm tired of comparing myself to everyone and everything. i can't fix everything even if i wanted to. the damage that has been ( Read more... )

I decided, why should I  c a r e ?

love is just a hoax, so forget what you've heard.

Today sucked. I was just in a kinda crappy mood. I wasn't mad at anybody. Just feeling crappy. sort of out of touch. And now of course my mother chooses to annoy me. Not on purpose but she was just being motherly.  Asking questions i've been trying to answer. You know what? I"m sick of people telling me things i already know. It's annoying and ( Read more... )

For once life doesnt suck. I'm happy. I think things can only get better. Today was fine accept for math homework which I will spend all day doing 2morrow. stupid functions!

I'm hypnotized by the words you say, not true but I beilive them anyway.

Get outta my way, cuz I'm goin  s o m e w h e r e  this is not where I wanna be.......

i fixed my printer. wOOt  wOOt!

so,

Skool started. It's not exciting. I can't process a thing. In one ear and out the other.  My classes are pretty kick ass cuz most of the time i'm with kick ass people.  We start chamber next week. And i hope i make all county and area all state. that would be cool to like accomplish something. Yeah mi madre is supposed to be picking me up after ( Read more... )

Well,

As of 2morrow the daily grind will resume. most kids are like OMFG school. But i'm like some one lynch me. PLEASE. I dunno i'm just feeling shitty today. I'm feeling worthless. Wait, maybe i am? ya know when your father starts comapring you to peopel he doesnt even KNOW. Thats when you know its really bad and when your parents will never ever ( Read more... )

This weekend so far has been nothing short of unproductive. My dog got sick, in fact she looked like she was going to die. But she did'nt. She's alive and kicking. Just not as energetic. We're not dog people. Yet funmi decided to bring home this little furball of joy that we call tina. So, we've adapted. not very well. But theres always room for ( Read more... )

You know what's really depressing?

The fact that school is 6 days away. And whats more depressing is that I've gained weight. So now i feel fat and depressed. *sigh* And my driving lessons were a bust. Because my dad decides to be a loser and make up excuses to nit teach me how to drive. whatever. he was a sucky teacher anyway. He has no patience ( Read more... )

Ok,

Hard habits are really hard to break. Like, my procrastination. This thing will be the death of me if i don't shape up. I need to accomplish alot and its hard and its difficult. I'm a little afraid. could this be angst? maybe, maybe not. But, the old kunbi needs to leave. I think shes half way gone. school is like in a week and 3 days. that ( Read more... )