I am tired. So tired that just calling it tired doesn't cut it... exhaused gets you close, but full on breakdown burnout would be too far. Now, I don't want to whine or throw a pity party, but just explain the state I've put myself in. While I'm working 2 jobs and at least 70 hours a week it does make me appreaciate the time that I do have off ( Read more... )

When someone tells you that their dog was hit by a car you usually assume the worst and that animal is now deceased. Well, the day before yesterday my dog Callaway was hit by a car, it was about 3:50pm on Wednesday afternoon and I had gotten off work early because I was in a training class for the telephone systems that day in the Inter-Tel ( Read more... )

I never considered myself a dog person, in fact I would say that I am very much a cat person due to the fact that my first real pet other than a goldfish was my cat Max. Max was an all white housecat and I had him from 2nd grade up through my junior year in college. It's tough losing a pet after having one that long and getting so attached and ( Read more... )

I've not updated this thing since before I even heard of the word "blog". So two years huh? Has anything happened.... ummm, a few things. I'll just sum things up here and who knows? I might write again in a few days (or years) or something. First of all I got married on Jan. 3, 2004 to Linsey... she's just too awesome to even describe but just ( Read more... )

Top 5 all time romantic relationship movies ( Read more... )

I was just reading my friend Jessica's journal and it inspired me to write something in mine... I've been so spuradic (sp?) about it and it (it being this thing your reading right now) has pretty much sucked and I want to say sucked lately but it's sucked the whole time honestly... yet I enjoy writing this suckiness.... okay now I have to do this " ( Read more... )

It hurts when someone leaves you behind or just flat out dumps you... but it also hurts when you have to dump someone else. This past time I did the dumping and it hurts like crazy, mainly because I know I made her cry and she really thought that she loved me. I didn't see a future and rather than lead her on even more or waste both of our time I ( Read more... )

The tempest surrounds me as I wait here in the eye of the beast... I can see it spinning and crashing on all sides and I long to be in the midst of the chaos. I feel so protected yet not very safe at all.

So many things I could talk about... but I'm too tired and selfish to talk about them now...

...I wish they made gatorade for the soul

That title is absurd, yet that is why I like it... you see it is this little bet I had with myself that I would not be able to keep writing in my journal for any amount of days in a row. I like bets where I can actually control the outcome and especially when you are betting against yourself you cannot lose... and with a bippy at stake, that is ( Read more... )

In my long absence from writing I was fearing that I might have forgotten how... yet here I am tapping away... so why now and not yesterday or 2 months ago? Well, new years just seemed too obvious and I wanted to get back on the wagon before Groundhog Day (one of my most sacred of holidays)... thus here and now. Actually, it became apparent that I ( Read more... )