Stuff, because LJ won't let me post empty.

Do I feel as if all I've done is earn everyone's contempt? I've tried so hard to do the opposite, but everything just seems so futile.

And all I have to say is life sucks, that is all.

Because this is seriously not helping health and stress levels. Not to mention having an inclass essay to write at 8 AM following said lack of sleep. I can't get away with it like I used to, I work weekend mornings and I hafta be up at 8AM, when I'm usually up 'till 1-2 AM on the computer, and it takes me a while to fall asleep after that. It's ( Read more... )

My first land HNM title today, with TG. Feels good to be accomplished, and I managed to save a Gates of Hades, I was in the last of three stun groups, Stunned GoH. It used it again shortly after, team 1 went. Then again, team 2 went, and it used it again. Luckily, I managed to get a cast off when /recast showed I was still one second from ( Read more... )

... what will be probably the longest semester of classes in my life so far (which each semester progressively getting longer after that >_>a;). It's only been two months since I've seen her, and it's agonizing. Hate being this lonely. Hate not having her around, the comfort she gives me, how I can actually fully relax with her, and how happy ( Read more... )

This one's for you, Andrea.

anata ga iru kara arukidaseru ashita e.

Random lyric from Resolution. Look it up if you're interested.

I can't help but feel defeated, yet again. Maybe I'm not doing something right, maybe I'm expecting too much. Maybe I'm sacraficing too much, saying no to too many things to make time that it upsets me. It hurts when schedules have conflicted so much lately, they will continue to conflict, and I've been skipping things and saying no, with the ( Read more... )

Good lord at all the updates lately, idk. It's just nice to get a load of stress off. Rambling usually works well with me, especially if it's to a potentially fictitious audience who will bear no burden reading. S'how I work, I s'pose. Work was bleh. I woke up at 6:30 to get there on time for staff training. Wasn't TOO bad, but orz at the ( Read more... )

another realization of the fact that I just can't win, no matter what. Feeling ill as of late. I think the stress is finally starting to break me. I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take, but I hafta last another 2 and a half weeks. I just have to. I have no other option in this matter. Maybe if I just take it one lousy day at ( Read more... )