i like living alone (with my cat). i really loved having everyone over friday and saturday. i need more days like that, but i also need days completely to myself. i'm considering taking 1-2 days off every pay period, like taking off every other wednesday or just not working wednesdays altogether. i don't think i can afford to do that right now, but ( Read more... )

i hate sleeping alone.

i hate being stressed over money.

how are we all still lost? i want to sell all my worldly possessions and move to california. or japan. or australia. or england.
there is nothing for me here. i am existing. i am not living.

please don't drag me out. i need time alone. i need to meditate or something. introspecticate.

it's the kind of loneliness that stands on your chest when you lay down in bed at night and is still sitting there when you wake up in the morning.

i am so, so tired. at first i couldn't sleep because i was so excited about the prospect of moving out. now i can't sleep because my brain overrides my medicine and continues to think about all the packing and stuff that i have to do. i woke up at 5am this morning, wide awake, and laid flat on my back for an hour, staring at the ceiling, until my ( Read more... )

this is me preparing to dig my heels into the ground for my own selfish reasons, because dammit, i deserve it. i deserve a little happiness.

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sleeping alone the next couple of nights after you've slept next to someone is miserable.