guess what I got to sit through in my Deviance class today....*drum roll*......THIN!!!! Yay! *sarcasm* I've only seen it like a million and one times and it just seems like such a personal experience for me to watch it alone that it was really weird to be sharing it with 50 other people in the same space, many of whom had not seen the doc. before. ( Read more... )

I woke up from my nap today (or should I say 4hr coma) in the most pitiful position. I looked and felt exhausted and could hardly get out of bed. I'm already ready to go back to sleep and I've only been up for less than an hour. My tummy cramped all morning even after eating (uncomfortable) and I had mild chest pains. I knew all of this was coming ( Read more... )

Fat people eating fast food. I don't know why, but sometimes I feel it's reserved for people who aren't fat (dumb I know). Fat people should WANT to be a normal size. Why eat that shit when ur a lard-ass ( Read more... )

AGAIN! Part of me, most of me, doesn't actually care that I'm purging daily cuz I can't help but feel that it's just another episode that'll last maybe two weeks and then it'll pass. I'm just going to let things be as they are and they'll correct themselves, right? Can anyone say "denial"? Whatever....I'm losing weight and that's all that matters ( Read more... )

and that's bad... and I'm REALLY hungry right now, but I don't want to eat anything. I'd like to see 150 tomorrow morning in some way shape or form, but I might not get there. I've had way less than 1000 cals today. That's the first in ages and it feels awful!!! SO eat something, you say. Only 3 more weeks or this and then it's thanksgiving. I'f I ( Read more... )

and things are going alright. I'm still 151 which is a surprise after chinese food for dinner on saturday (breakfast and lunch on sunday), a night of drinking on friday with burgers and fries and a shake too, and half a cake yesterday (I'm not joking... half a lemon buttermilk cake). Which says that my metabolism is still working wonders for me. I ( Read more... )

And I kind of like it. Although a part of me is like fucking eat something! The other part of me is like, but if u don't you'll lose weight. I've lost 2 lbs since Monday I think. The thing is I'm still 151. I'm not entirely unhappy about that but I'd really like to be 145 before the holidays. My metabolism is crazy fast though so there's no doubt ( Read more... )

Yes We Can!!!!! 

I have officially screwed myself for the test. My second test out of the three tests for this class and u know what? I don't care. I just need to get a C. I could do so much better, but I'm not going to cuz I don't care to. I'm tired and I'm ready for this semester to be over. I want to sleep in hang with friends and I don't want to be studying all ( Read more... )

but not my weight surprisingly. Although, I don't know how long that's going to last. If I keep eating the way that I have been, my body is eventually going o put the weight on. I was so surprised this morning when I stepped on the scale and saw 151.5....still 150 plus or minus 2 lbs (plus obviously). If you had watched me eat this weekend, you'd ( Read more... )