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krissycat

Musings on Sexuality

Mar 25, 2008 20:48

I am...confused...

Above familial matters, college applications, lack of a job, and so much more, I have been confused about my sexuality/gender. I haven't wanted to open up to anyone close to me, out of fear that they would reject me. I haven't even opened up to people online about it (which is something that I can normally do very easily since ( Read more... )

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teahound March 26 2008, 01:57:45 UTC

If you prefer being called Kris, I will by all means call you as such.

While I can relate to your feelings, and even went through a similar experience, I came out of the end preferring the female side of me over the male aspects. I can appreciate what you went through, though. I'm glad you were able to get this off your chest, and I'm here for you. <3

terrorwolf March 26 2008, 02:53:31 UTC

That takes a lot of guts to admit, even if it is online.
More power to ya.

krissycat March 26 2008, 03:55:37 UTC

Thank you so much, guys. I really do feel much better. All these feelings kind of hit me again after lying dormant for some time. And, to terrorwolf, I hope that this causes some things to come into the light for you. LoL. I'm so sorry about my confusion... I've been in mental turmoil.

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krissycat March 26 2008, 06:47:38 UTC

I know that you hear it from me a lot, but you are an awesome guy, Liesk. As to your inquiries, my hairdresser obviously feminized my hair against my request. All I said was, "I want a boyish cut," and that was what I got. She may have unconsciously feminized it.

I am already allowing my eyebrows to grow out, and my legs to go unshaved. I don't have the money right now to update my wardrobe, however, so I don't want to start making too drastic of changes too quickly. But, yes, I do want to start looking like a guy--immediately. I am going to start working out again (because I have a tendency to bulk up rather easily), and I am letting my hair grow out into a shaggy men's hairstyle.

The one thing that I am having trouble hiding are my D-cup breasts... I can't afford a binder right now, so I've tried some homemade solutions, but they don't work very well... :-\

tazook March 26 2008, 07:05:28 UTC

Early on that's what my hairdresser did, too. My solution was to change hairdressers. Go to a modern, punkish salon or to a barber shop. Hell, if you want something really simple, go to Supercuts. Just make sure that you're really specific about what you want and bring photo examples.

Wardrobe is honestly probably 60% of passing, so yeah, that'll be an issue until you've got the money to update it. One tip is that shirts are going to be counterintuitive: don't go for huge baggy t-shirts to try and hide your chest. They look bad and tend to hang in the wrong places. Wear your correct size and you'll pass better ( ... )

tazook March 26 2008, 07:06:25 UTC

Um well this is embarrassing. I posted from my alter's LJ. Whoops.

krissycat March 27 2008, 00:27:51 UTC

LoL! That's all right. I enjoyed reading them ;-) And thanks for all the tips! They're really helpful. I'll message you my size info, though I doubt that I'd be anywhere NEAR as small as you. LoL. My ribcage is rather wide, and I'm just large-boned in general.

Also, do not worry about me. LoL. I have thought about this, and thought about it, and thought some more. I've actually been thinking about it since age 11. ^.^ I've just been too much of a coward towards my family to do anything about it, or speak up in any way. Now, I'm taking that much-needed step forward, and ignoring whatever they have to say about it.