Do you ever get the feeling that there is someone watching you so you feel the urge to make a statement with your facial expressions? Today when I was walking through the quad I had a sudden urge to smile. And the smile I had had much more than just a simple smirk of the face. Behind it all I was happy to be alive. Happy to be here. 
There are so ( Read more... )

Do you ever feel like you've had enough. Even if it is a good thing, you still get tired of it and want change just because you want things to be more exciting? Lately thats how things have been. I think thats where a lot of my fights have come from. Any time things are just settled and somewhat boring, something has to come up. And me being me, I ( Read more... )

Happy new year everyone! I love you! 2006 is going to be A-m-a-z-i-n-g!!!!

So..I'm going to do this survey thing but also reflect at the end of each month cuz I think it would be fun...and interesting

January~
1. did you have a new years resolution? Sorta...It was to really grow up this year and to be less dependent..I think I accomplished it...it took me awhile.

2.Who kissed you at midnight? I was with the family so I ( Read more... )

So I learned this this morning:

Grief = Expression of Love

Something about me being sad and caring about people even though they have stopped caring about me as much. Says that I have a big heart with a lot of love to give. I think I like that idea.. I need to stop being afraid.

In other news. I ate tater tot casserole today and it melted the ( Read more... )

Most people go through times in their lives where they feel as if everything is going wrong. It feels like their world is crashing down on them all at once. I went through that just recently. And boy that wasn't a fun ride.

I have learned and grown up. I'm not done changing by any means but I noticed a difference in me. I realized that things that ( Read more... )

I have really hit the end of a dead end. All I have to say is that thank the good lord that I have the best and most supportive friends. I have been nothing but been giving people a hard time and I have nothing to show for it. There will be quite a bit of changing happening to me. Something you have to learn to quit cold turkey. I am starting over ( Read more... )

well it is only Wed and I feel like this week has been much more of and improvment than last week. I must say last week was one of the harder weeks I've had to go thru. It also didn't help that I was far far away from my family. Thats all I need right now is my family. I miss them. Before i left school I didn't want to go home but now I really do. ( Read more... )

Well just as this week is about to end and the weekend was about to start I began to think things were going to be a lot better this weekend. Then an unexpected call from mom about something that I don't want to go into much detail. But bottom line, things really couldn't of gotten worse. I realize that writing here won't make things better but ( Read more... )

So things are rough. My computer is no longer in working condition. I am typing from my roomie's computer. Gah having Katie as a roomate is so awesome. I don't know what I would do without her.. Besides my computer everything around me has seemed to of gone wrong. My hopes of feeling better about moving on with things have made me feel worse. I ( Read more... )