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[kristine283]

yeah so all my friends are mad at me right now... well all i can say is sorry. everyone is just talking behind my back not to me at all. everyone went out for kristys bday.. yeah i was invited.... i forgot it was her bday so i didnt go... and what 'pisses me off is that i spoke to someone a few times before i got off work and they didnt mention it

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[anonymous]

I think people do deserve another chance sometimes, not that i am saying that he does. I had problems with mike too just last week, but i have never ditched my friends for anyone and definitly not anyone who was gonna do something like that to me. i mean who was there for you when things went bad?? you gotta remember that. dont give up on the people that are there for you and it sounds like that is what you have done.. you can have friends and be with someone at the same time

[kristine283]

i know you have have problems with mike too. ive had a lot of problems the last month... how would you feel if you thought you had herpes for a almost a month... i didnt talk to anyone.... the only person who know for a whil was trisha then eventually i told theresa.. i didnt do anythihng... not just with you guys... ppl at work noticed, my mom, aunt kathy, even as sad as it sounds customers that know me could tell something was wrong.. yeah you are right for a WHOLE month i have been MIA... especially with what happened to me... like i said i forgot it was your bday and i cant do anything bc i missed it but apologize. i have pushed everyone away.. especially my mom. and honestley right now thats the main relationship i care about fixing the most.. ive been letting her down a lot lately and now i have to deal with everyone else.. yes i shut everyone out.. not bc i have a bf but bc i have been dealing with a lot of problems that i dont talk about... there are a lot of things going on that ppl dont know but they are only judging me on

[anonymous]

you cant use that disease excuse for everything and you have been trying to. im sorry you had all that to go through, i do hear your apology. but you keep trying to make excuses for not being there, and they arent working. i dont really feel like fighting about it. i am just tellin you i am upset with you,... and you were wrong, and there is No excuse. none at all.

[kristine283]

you know wHAT IM sick of everyone right now and if you dont want to accept my apology well what can i do.. you have no idea in the world what it felt for me to have this and deal with whats going on. whatever im just tired of everyone judging me. i need time with chad to deal with my problems. yeah i forgot it was your bday what else can i say... be mad at me forever if you want to. and im not using that as an excuse... i was depressed... i cried for days... i couldnt even stay the whole night at work. im just tired of everything. well i gotta go.. its just hurting me bc i know ppl have done worse to others and yeah this has been my fuck up of all the friendships ive had but ppl have done worse things and i cant take all these ppl criticising me for what i wanna do or what i have done and what makes me happy.

[rogue1281]

Jesus, I know this situation all to well. Kristine i love you and will never judge you, You know i dont necessarily agree with you getting back with chad and you know it sux we dont hang out as much anymore, but so is life. This is your first time in a REAL relationship, your bound to fall and its going to be awkward learning how to juggle friends, family, and boyfriend for a while until you finally find everythings little niche. It seems a littloe harsh for a "friend" to say well i dont care about your decision but if he hurts you again im not gonna be there for you, holy crap what a fantastic friend. If he hurts you again, which i hope he doesnt, i will be there for you, because you are my friend and despite things you do i disagree with ill always be there, thats what "friends" do. I have made a ton of bad decisions in my mere 22 years, and i will continue to make more, the best thing about making bad decisions and falling on your face is seeing who is there to lift you up, because that is when you know who is truly your friend. As

[rogue1281]

Dude dude. First of all its not hard to juggle. i have done it lately and i dont do relationships. Theresa in her first real relationship, is "juggling just fine." okay the next thing about trish sayin she wasnt gonna be there. She has her justification i am sure. Kristine has used the disease thing on me a few times now. It happens. and she has gone out with other people!! just uses the excuse on me, and i am sorry she had to go thru that. but that doesnt mean she cant meet me out a month later. i do understand. i go thru stuff too. and okay i am upset with her, and i hope she feels like crap. hows that one! she forgot my birthday, hasnt seen me in at least a month. blows me off, didnt even return my call to say she wasnt coming. You tellin me i should be okay with this. maybe bec. you and kristine werent and havent been friends as long as me and her to see this huge fukin change in her relationship with me. I have not nor ever fucked kristine over. so she has no justification to do it to me. and i am not lettin her down either. if

[spideytk]

Ok... If I were in the same situation with a boy and then got back with him.. Kristine would tell me the same thing.. that she doesnt want to hear about him and all.. its beacuse she would be the one who saw me hurt and she WOULD NOT want to see me hurt agian and go through that agian.. as an apparently "fantasic friend" that is how I feel.. and as in extremely f-ing her over before.. thats your own opinion.. I dont know if that is how kristine feels about that particular situation and thats not how I feel about it.. but next time instead of saying I wont name names.. just go ahead and say Trisha its not that hard.... this situation has totally gotten out of hand... same thing with the boyfriend lives miles away ...just say Trisha... and I may have so-called ditched my friends before... but I didnt go out that much before I went out with Rick.. but you wouldnt know if I go out or not... because I dont hang out with you.. so please stop bringing other situations in hand.. and Im not judging her.. I dont look down on her.. I dont think

[spideytk]

When someone is down, they asks for help and dont completely shut you out...

[rogue1281]

everyone has their own way of dealing with things, just because its not your way doesnt mean its wrong. And i wasnt just meaning you trisha so get over yourself. And no skin off my back that we dont hang out so much so that little grab at me was ridiculous. It hasnt gotten out of hand with me, and Im not mad just sticking up for someone who deserved it. And I didnt realze the length of teh friendship was more important than the quality and teh connection. It IS always a proud moment to say Ive known this person for sooo long, but never the reason why someone should be so close. Just because you guys are all experts doesnt mean everyone else was, when chelsea dated someone i didnt like i acted the same way you guys are, and it took us a long time to get remotely close the good friendship we used to have, I thought by being hostile towards her she would see that i was more important, but it only pushed her away. I had a right not to like him, but she had a right to make her own mistakes. Its not my place to judge chad, or kristine, she

[spideytk]

Please stay out of this.. because you have gotten out of hand.. this is between me and kristine.. not pam, trisha and kristine... this is between kristy and kristine, not pam, kristy and kristine.. this is between kristine and theresa, not pam, theresa and kristine.. personally, I am not mad at kristine.. I am mad at you.. your just starting more drama like you always do.. who havent you fought or gotten in an arguement with... are you going to be a drama queen at halloween???

[rogue1281]

all i was doing was sticking up for a friend, when everyone else was being way too harsh, i wasnt even arguing, and when u post something in a LIVEJOURNAL, i have a right to respond, yall wanna keep to yourselves than do so. ..

your just starting more drama like you always do.. who havent you fought or gotten in an arguement with... are you going to be a drama queen at halloween???
very mature, guess you know me real well. if u read correctly, ud see i did not insult any of you, u guys cant debate or discuss with out insults, drama where? drama who? im done arguing with u, because i never started, sorry if you feel me sticking up for someone is wrong, sorry if stating my opinion is wrong. but if you want to create more drama and argue dont post it online.

[spideytk]

So maybe I did get a little zealous in my last journal.. personally, I did read and did get insulted.. I am trying to talk to kristine to tell her where I am coming from..I am not trying to hear from you.. I tried to call her for days and didnt get a response... chad is her choice.. and I am not mad about that .. I just dont want to hear about him and all.. I am upset from the lack of communication... yes, she did apologize, but after that apology she did not try to call or anything.. we talked but everything we said was work related and that doesnt count.. I am the type of person who cant just start talking to someone after something like that.. and if i were to call.. I would have nothing to say because I cant just up and act like none of this happened... and If I did call and had no response.. I would be pissed... Kristine you apologized and that was noted, but since then it seems as if nothing has really changed..