Ugggh! My husband irks me so bad sometimes. He always all of a sudden feels ill or tired or his back hurts whenever he's supposed to help clean or do something that doesn't sound fun to him. This is why I enjoy when he's at work all day. It's always something with him. I understand he works and I'm "just a stay at home mom" as some ppl refer to me ( Read more... )

Down a pound from yesterday. I hope this means that this plateau is finally broken. I'm just glad to see I'm down a pound since I ate "normally" yesterday and didn't purge that salad last night. Maybe it jump started my metabolism. Only 15 more pounds to go for my first goal. Hoping to be out of the 200s soon.

Had a salad for dinner and feeling full... Fighting the urge to purge. I hate feeling full even if it was just a salad. Just taking deep breaths. Totaling out at just under 1200 cals for the day. Hope I don't gain tomorrow :(

Woke up from a nap to find my husband was taking our daughter out to run some errands and that he wanted daddy daughter time. He said they were going to give me some alone time to relax. So he made it clear I wasn't allowed to go.
I flipped saying that it was bullshit i couldn't go or that she couldn't stay here and i didn't understand why I was ( Read more... )

So I woke up this morning and felt so light headed and almost passed out after I smoked a cig. I had to lie down for about two minutes and just breathe. I'm confused though because I'm not thin enough to get lightheaded I mean I'm still 215 and shouldn't feel any of the symptoms of deprivation, in my opinion.
So I made some food to kinda get my ( Read more... )

B/p'ed twice so far today. And then I ate a tomato sandwich (didn't purge it). I hate this why can't I just say no? Why can't I just get rid of this fat? I think I'm just going to sleep until my little one wakes up from her nap. I have no motivation right now to do anything.

Do I really want this that badly? I mean, I do what I can work out wise with a 5 month old, usually a 30 minute walk with a stroller, and do some reps of abdominal exercises when she's napping. But it doesn't seem to be enough. All it does is make me feel hungrier and I try to keep my cals between 500-1000. But my weight won't budge. I've chugged ( Read more... )

I havent posted on here in a few days. i think I'm stuck at this weight and its starting it irritate me. Haven't lost since since day 2 of the 5:2 diet. Thinking of just doing 500 cals today but my body and mind are at war right now. I'm still fat but I'm already shaking and constantly cold.
I still have 16 lbs to lose for my first major goal but ( Read more... )

I'm at 364 cals and netting at 78 for the day so far. I think I'm going to skip dinner just because I have no desire to eat anything in the house. Today was supposed to be a normal day where I would eat 2000 cals but I'd feel more satisfaction in restricting today and tomorrow.
I'm going to revise the 5:2 diet and alternate every two days between ( Read more... )

I think I accidentally took one too many ECA stacks... I feel so jittery but I can't work out to wear some of this off until little one takes a nap... I can't stop tapping my foot. And I feel kinda sick to my stomach.