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Down to 202 lbs. so that's 4 lbs since my last post. Three more pounds till my first LTG and then it's down more from there. Haven't been working out or anything, just keeping myself disconnected from the world with cough meds. They totally kill my appetite but I can function enough to not let anyone know I'm not all there lol. So yea. Hope ( Read more... )

Have to purge once a day just to feel calm? Like I won't binge out of control but I have to "allow" myself one purge in order to keep everything else under control.
I dunno maybe I'm not making any sense. It was just a realization of a "ritual" or habit I've developed in the 8 years I've been bulimic and never realized it until just now. I wonder if ( Read more... )

Did well last night with not giving into my midnight binges. I smoked with my husband last night because I was stressed about the pool party today and didn't consider how badly I binge when I'm high.
But in actuality I ended up just tired instead if having the munchies. So I don't know what happened last night but I'm relieved. I am another pound ( Read more... )

Down to 207 as of this morning. I was happy with it until the hunger started to kick in. All of my safe foods are out and with my husband working from 8 am till midnight and no mode of transportation I'm stuck with foods that scare me. So ended up eating food that I wouldn't have eaten had I been able to go shopping, but countered it with some ( Read more... )

Well after about a week of pigging out I have decided its time to buckle back down and go back on the Skinny Girl Diet. Hopefully I can make it the full 30 days instead of only 10 days. Weigh in tomorrow. Only 10 lbs away from my first long term goal. I have I do this! It's so close I can almost grab it. But instead I get a handful of fat right now ( Read more... )

Been gone for about a week. Just haven't been doing much outside of motherhood
. I woke up this morning after having another family gathering two and a half pounds heavier than I was three days ago. So disappointing. I honestly thought I'd gained more but gain is a gain no matter the amount. I have been out of my lexapro for four days and can feel ( Read more... )

So far so good weight wise. Another pound down. So down to 209 and feeling good about it. Haven't been eating much due to issues with my husband...again.
So I went rummaging after cutting last night and found my old lexapro from high school. Popped two of them and didn't sleep a wink all night on top of feeling a kind of high.
Well anyways, so I'm ( Read more... )

I woke up to see that I'm down 4 lbs from Saturdays weight check. I'm actually seeing results and its like a new spark of determination has been lit. 450 cal limit today minus fruits and veggies.
I'm going to save all my cals for dinner tonight.
Sadly, last night around one am I woke up with horrible hunger pains and could not get back to sleep. I ( Read more... )

I've done well today. My mother in law made a family breakfast this morning and I did not eat it. And I was straight up honest and told her I was on a diet and couldn't eat it. She didn't ask after that. So yay to me that I was able to sit and watch ppl eat without having to participate but still be part of conversation. Making dinner again tonight ( Read more... )