*carefully stepping up to the podium she clears her throat, organizing her notes before smiling softly, looking into the audience ( Read more... )

Sometimes I hate myself. I think even before I was a Christian (though I had enough influences then too), yes, perhaps as ordained once I crowned from my mom...I've been obligated with this sense of responsibility. Do the right thing, Toni. Do the right thing. No matter what. Even if it hurts. No matter what ( Read more... )

drawl of his..."but you can't hide." [Alternative Entry Title: "One Down..."]

I can still hear it. I can still hear it. It clings to my ears like it just happened.

I've been runnin' all night and day-
Gonna do more before I'm through

So don't you take a second glance
and think I'll stop for you.

-For Those Who Take A Second Glance
I could start this ( Read more... )

I almost did it this morning. Sometimes the words dare to leap from my mouth in situations like these, or threaten my eyes...pushing at them in plea. I wanted to hug him tightly and whisper in his ear. "I've fucked up and now I'm in trouble. I've fucking fucked up ( Read more... )

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I don't know if 30 minutes is enough time. I'll be off soon ( Read more... )

How could I have forgotten (but then it makes so much sense)? Oh bloody fuck. No wonder I was so crazy this morning.

Coasting the memory wave...
K.

P.S: You know nobody will ever understand it. I know nobody will ever understand it. Here we go it alone...

I honestly don't know. I kept dozing off while writing it...and I lost it. I guess I deleted it in my sleep...pleh. It was mainly cranky, sleep-deprived bitching and rambling anyway. Hell, I can't even remember half of what I wrote.

K.

Will I ever catch up on sleep? Who knows!! Phew!!

Friday was Saul's dinner party.

1) Spare me if you weren't there...it wasn't my affair.
2) Spare Saul if you weren't there, because it isn't like we can get a fucking time machine and insert you ( Read more... )

An entry of epic proportions is coming your way!! Heh. Maybe not. I have so much to write about but I don't know if I have the energy to do so. I've decided to add a few songs here to keep me in check/on track. I figure we'll start with that as I collect my thoughts. *winks*

K.

Won’t do no good to hold no seance
What’s gone is gone and you can’ ( Read more... )