well I guess I have finally lost another family member. I suppose it is only a matter of time before I lose the last one. Never could hold onto the people I love more than my own life. My fears are coming true.

Well tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am missing all my children and grandchildren. But am very thankful they are all healthy and happy.

Happy Thanksgiving all

Well I was able to say good bye to Paigey and Misty and so did Joel. We are really missing them. Misty called yesterday and I am glad that she got there safely ( Read more... )

We feel very hurt because we were not allowed to say goodbye to our granddaughter, Paigey tonight. Joel had to work and drove straight from the hospital in scrubs to my house to pick me and the car seat up and then straight to the apt to say good bye to Paigey and Misty. I held off saying good bye until Joel was there so we could do it together ( Read more... )

Well I had a wonderful spending time with Joel and Paigey. We all had fun and it was just great! she was so good and didn't cry at all! Got her a couple new outfits and she was happy. I feel so lucky to have been able to spend time with her like that. She made me feel like she loved me. :) Very tired today though. hehe!

A Mother's Heart is endless for her children. Mine is for sure. No matter what they think or feel I will always love them and I will always be their mother. I wish only happiness and good things for them. I pray for those things for them. I cheer them on when they are succeeding and my heart cries with them when there is pain and sorrow. My ( Read more... )

well I am just kind of neutral today. i am wishing the best for my daughter and granddaughter. I love them so much. I had lots of fun watching movies with them and seeing Paigey's first pout after asking please...lol it was so cute and adorable. Misty's so called innocent smile as she snuck in chocolate today in my groceries. Some things never ( Read more... )

Today is Chi Chi's 5th birthday! yea!

I do not know where I want to go from here or what to do. Upon reflection I recall all my children stating they forgave me my mistakes and that they loved me. My understanding of forgiveness was the things that are forgiven are not brought up again. I asked God to forgive me of all my sins and these were detailed at the time. From what I ( Read more... )

I remember making Chris stand in the corner longer than he should have as a toddler. I pushed his high chair too far back and it fell over while he was in it. I gave him and misty epicat because troy stole candy and we were trying to get him to confess. It was wrong. I remember trying to put them through like basic training they thought it was a ( Read more... )