this is the single hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. it feels like my insides are scrambled and they're bound to fall out at any minutes. The pain is horrific and debilitating. But despite my pain, You're here. You're here, you're real, and you're cupping my heart and lifting my chin to peer into my eyes. With each tear that falls, you are ( Read more... )

I'm so frustrated with how lonely I feel even now. There seems to be no end to this perilous feat. I hate how inconsistant I am. i'm a mess- a rollercoaster of emotions. There seems to be no consistency in my life- nothing to live for- nothing to wake up for (especially at 6 a.m.) I feel so detatched from the world- no one seems to understand me or ( Read more... )

I should be writing my paper, but I can’t seem to focus. I am suddenly overwhelmed with nostalgia. For old things, old lives, old people, old hang-ups, old addictions, old identities. It’s probably too hard for most to understand, but it’s who I am, and I understand it all too well ( Read more... )

Okay, here goes. So I was in adolescent development today and we were talking about today’s youth and a million issues that go along with that ( Read more... )

"I wonder what God was thinking when he created you
I wonder if he knew everything I would need
Because he made all my dreams come true
When made you, he must have been thinking about me."
-Michael Buble

Could anything be more corny or sweet than that?

Thank you Elizabet-a

I'm not sure if this is in reference to anything or not, but it probably is ( Read more... )

I would just like to state that I am completely and totally in love with Jesus. I lay facedown at His feet and humbly accept His grace. His faithfulness is amazing. His mercy shines down on me as I look at a sad world. I have been delivered from the darkness. I have been delivered from myself. I owe Him my everything for that. Uphill battles mean ( Read more... )

Beneath the powder and the lace ( Read more... )

"i went out driving trying to clear my head
i tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
i guess i'm feeling just a little tired of this
and all the baggage that seems to still exist
it seems the only bessing i have left to my name
is not knowing what we could have been
what we should have beenwhen is he going to quit pretending that he ( Read more... )

i need a night to figure out where the hell i'm gonig, maybe who the hell i am. I'm stuck somewhere in between the person i was and the person i wanted to be. i'm tired of playing the role i'm stuck in, and i'm tired of the people i wish could see me. I wish i could somehow be in control of the things i wanted to happen. i wish i could fix nate's ( Read more... )