Well I told myself I would never see her again and I was going to push her away and forget her.. Why can I never stick with what I intend to do.. I did it with Katie and now I am doing it with Lis and both are people who had a big something in my life.. Tammy is still here.. She is complicated but needless to say I have yet to actually let her go ( Read more... )

Due to a minor mishap my entire blog was erased and now I am starting over.. Blah.. I hate computers at times ( Read more... )

One of my most frequent asked questions that people ask me is.. .. .. “What where you thinking when you with that man??” I admit it, I was really stupid to play that charade.. And what more I was seriously stupid and foolish to do what I did and allow what was happening to happen but I seriously did not see any way around it.. It has been since ( Read more... )

I am not even sure what death means anymore.. I do not fear it like so many nor do I understand the truth of what it really means.. Logically the term death means to die.. No longer alive.. But I suppose that our strange minds have developed false tales of heaven and hell.. I say false because I am one to not believe in them.. Nor do I believe in ( Read more... )

At what age does one's actions set in to make the life long path?? Or is it something that just keeps changing with time?? I have the answer to neither.. All I know is that my home and job well I am happy here.. I would do anything to stay here.. To be with the people I have let in my life.. This is my home and my passion ( Read more... )

I recently read a DeviantART Journal of my sister Taitava and she said in this journal that she is spilling her life events into the blog thing not for the knowledge of the public but for the sanity of her own state of mind.. It is not nor is ever meant for the public to take or reject, it is like medicine for her.. And so I hope here I can take ( Read more... )