For the first time in a long time

This is all I have to type:

: )

this is going to be rambling, because i just need to get everything in my head out. out somewhere and even though ive been talking to many people, i need to get it written down so i can analyze where i am. im always fucking analyzing everything and that is probably why im stuck in the situation i am now ( Read more... )

I guess I'll elaborate on my earlier post...I need to get a lot out and this journal is like the only thing I can talk to and do that with. Sorry if this is extremely long, but no one said you had to read it ( Read more... )

wow..how do you go from being so high one day to feeling extremely low the next...

everything has been going wrong lately, and just think, i was so happy like 2 days ago...

why does something always come along and fuck everything up?
nothing can ever stay right anymore.
i'll never feel like i used too again.

fuck...

Happy Birthday.
Master of Awesomeness.

always remembered. always loved. always missed.

we love you B-rad.

...I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.

i'm so fucked up

but i can't walk away...because that would be too easy

if only you knew...let's fast forward...it's over...
let's not stay right now.
situation. even trying to make the most of it doesn't help. this is it. i can't fix my thoughts.

.you can have everything but have ( Read more... )

i thought i could handle it all. but i just cant ( Read more... )

"Dear Katherine,

Congratulations! You have been admitted to West Virginia University for the Fall 2005 semester."Ok, so maybe WVU isn't the hardest school in the world to get into. But, I worked my ass off last semester and it's good to have something to show for it. Either way, at least now I have an outlet from Hood. haha ( Read more... )

It never seems to go away...sometimes it fades, but mostly it stays...

And alone you sit and wonder about the day you'll feel free...

But it always follows, it won't let you be...

What was going through your head? What were you thinking? Why couldn't we help?
I just don't understand...
Help me understand...

*It has not healed with time*

I should of understood. Sometimes I let my emotions get the best of me. It's just one night. So then why does that seem like an eternity to me? I'm really sorry for the way I acted. I hope I don't screw things up. You know best to not listen to the things I don't mean. I don't know why they escape. I just want to be good enough for you. I want you ( Read more... )