They shouldn't call them pregnancy symptoms. They should be called pregnancy side effects. Symptoms indicate the presence of something. When that something is confirmed to exist, at least in the case of disease, its ramifications are called presentations. In the case of medications, side effects. Pregnancy seems to me to warrant side effects; ( Read more... )

Rough day. Irrationally angry, stupid fight with M. Spinach made me cry. Laundry. Tired, tired, tired. No nap. Maybe tomorrow.

Oops. I suck at this.

Today:
Sausage, sweet potato, apple hash
Scrambled eggs (2) w/spinach, arugula, Colby Jack cheese.
Toast, 1/2 w/cinnamon sugar
Popcorn
Banana "pancake"
Carrots and hummus
SnaPea crisps
Shrimp
Plumazins

Extremely irritable. Can't handle Michael. I don't know if it's real or hormones. Extremely problematic. I don't like not knowing whether the things I feel are real. Maybe he was being annoying, dismissive and unhelpful. Maybe I was being touchy and hormonal. What the fuck. Can't abide ( Read more... )

Breakfast
11:15 a.m.
Why can I not seem to eat breakfast before 11:00 a.m.?
Sausage, sweet potato, and apple hash.

Afternoon
Weird timing, I guess. Too late to be lunch; probably around 4:00, 4:30
Butter lettuce, plain
Leftover baked ziti

EveningSesame Udon Salad at Motorco ( Read more... )

Breakfast
11:00 a.m., probably
Scrambled eggs (3), colby jack cheese
Broccoli
Didn't get very far on either of these. Couldn't finish.

Snacks
Throughout the day
Carrot sticks
Almonds/cashews/walnuts

Afternoon/Evening
Butter lettuce, plain
some leftover cheddar broccoli noodles
Mrs. Grass
maybe some curry

Breakfast
11:00 a.m.
Yogurt "parfait": Greek yogurt, Naturebox French Toast Granola, Banana, Walnuts

8 oz. cup of coffee, ~12:00 - 1:00 p.m.

Lunch
2:30 - 3:30 p.m.
Salad: Butter lettuce, arugula, chia seeds, sunflower seeds, Italian dressing
Grilled cheese sandwich: American, Havarti, 12 grain bread
Half an apple, 1 TB cashew butter.

Dinner7:35 ( Read more... )

I've been doing this tea ritual now for as many nights as I can. Maybe it does and maybe it doesn't help my brain shut off. Can it help when I'm sad? How much is real emotion and how much pregnancy distortion. I hate that. I knew being fat would complicate conception. So many concepts so complicated. A week late for a train that isn't coming. Body ( Read more... )

Email to M. Thought processes ( Read more... )

Yes, my sister stealing my thunder. My husband saying he was worried this would happen, which is unkind and a bit unfair. But my thoughts are a bit unkind, too. It seemed a lot easier for her, and why did she have to ruin it and tell everyone so soon and ugh. At least it'll still be a major first for Mary, but now it makes me second guess waiting ( Read more... )