( the bitch just wouldnt shut up )

on 6/6/06 i went to the top of the eiffel tower. other than hating the feeling of lonliness while all the tourists around me were there visiting with family, friends, fiances, boy/girlfriends, i enjoyed the view and the strange quietness and serenity at the top of the tower. everyone just stands up there in a weird reverent silence, taking pictures ( Read more... )

is depressed. i'm not really depressed, i just really really really really have a strange feeling that i dont know who i am [supposed to be]. and yes, that can be depressing. am i having issues involving self-worth? yes indeedy. do i have one or two issues that i refuse to discuss? who doesnt. do i have a tendency to be non-confrontational? you ( Read more... )

i cannot sit down and concentrate and work until i am completely moved into my new apartment. i've tried to work but i cant even bring myself to log in ( Read more... )

signed my lease for my new apartment today. yes!!! i'm right in the thick of things. george w. bush's oily ass isnt getting any money off *me* this summer, i'm walking and biking EVERYWHERE and leaving the car at home. plus my apartment overlooks lots of trees and quiet homes, and not the busy street on the other side. i get all the sunshine, trees ( Read more... )

starting yesterday i've taken up the habit of yelling out "Black RAAAAAAGE! (Argh!!!)" when i'm by myself. thanks Kory. even though you're not really responsible.

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jeez, i'm in a real wistful mood right now, the kind i get when i'm alone with my thoughts, and feeling more alone than usual. probably because i caught contact by mistake. i'm not around it very often so i must be susceptible to even the tiniest waft of it. acting class hasnt seen me for about a month now-- i'm in the market for a new place to go ( Read more... )

Hey folks. This is from a friend of mine who's used to live in Saudi Arabia cause her father worked for an oil company. But she didnt write it though, she's just passing it along and so am i ( Read more... )

i have enjoyed my two weeks in paris but now i'm super ready to come home. i finally feel confident enough to babble in terrible french in public, i love the guys working in the IT department, and antonio's friend's cousin is super, and she introduced me to her crew of friends and we managed to click. it's great when having a similar sense of humor ( Read more... )

ok i've been here a week now. my room faces the Eiffel Tower on the 29th floor. i have my run of the hotel w/ everything being free (and plan to stock up on alcohol from the room's minibar for my trip back on the plane!) after a few bumbles of choosing the wrong things on the room service menu (french food can be NASTY if you dont choose the right ( Read more... )