"What do you want? You-you want the moon? Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down. Hey, that's a pretty good idea. I'll give you the moon...Well, then you could swallow it. And it'll all dissolve, see. And the moon beams that shoot out of your fingers and your toes and the ends of your hair..." George Bailey "It's a ( Read more... )

so im still sick. the HIV must be converting into AIDS now. sigh. ah well, we all knew itd happen eventually. SERIOUSLY! did u really think i have AIDS? gah! u think id tell u, rather than just fuck and infect u? geez, thats right, i dont give a fuck about you! so, like i was saying, im still sick and i stayed up til 130am doing ( Read more... )

boys:well, ive officially called it quits with daniel. we went on a date friday, saw underworld2 (the 1st one was better, tho there was a nice sex scene with that gorgeous guy) and it was kinda a trial date to see if i still had feelings and of course, i didnt. i knew i wouldnt, but he wanted it sooo badly i did it. it was awful. its really over. i ( Read more... )

To be, or not to be- that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them. To die- to sleep-,O! my lord

and my head hurts from crying. daniel came over and was so adorable trying to get me back. absolutely persitant. i said yes for a split second but then i felt so guilty... i dont understand whats going on with me. i usually know whats the right thing to do and now... i have no idea. it doent feel good to say yes and it soesnt feel good to say no. ( Read more... )

so im ina little better mood cuz i started the red dot. all my stress is draining outta me. EWWW! i went to target and bought cute choes, a curtain and pic frames for my posters. well some of them anyway. like halfa them, the other ones sizes were too obscure. i guess ill hafta order some frame sor something. anyway, i hafta go get ready for dinner ( Read more... )

there is only a 1 letter difference between the words 'lonely' and 'lovely ( Read more... )

we learned how to make a bed. apparently theres a particular way to it. it dumb and obvious. and we learned how to assist someone from the bed to the chair and back to the bed again. i hate touching people. that is all. no wait... im still horny.
done.

ya, i hafta learn how to give ppl enemas and catheters and sponge baths and gross shit like that. ugh! poop is gross. id rather not do it. but hey! thats why nurses get paid well right? the catheter i think i can handle, the enemas... ew. especially on old ppl. gross. and how humiliating for them. my god, if i cant even bathe or shit by myself then ( Read more... )