crushes suck. i used to love having them and now they just make things messy. i have to take everything too seriously and over-analyze things like crazy. i hope nobody i work for is reading this.

my cat is so cute. he's leaning against me right now with his little paws tucked underneath him. awwwww he's so cute!!! he just woke up from a nap on one of my hoodies. i heart beijing ( Read more... )

You Are a Liberal for Life


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i like to believe that people are inherently good, that deep down, people really do care about others. bush winning the election has destroyed all my faith and trust in humanity. i don't know how people in good conscious could vote for bush knowing that we're at war b/c the president lied, killing innocent iraquis and young american kids. i don't ( Read more... )

i hate the kind of person my job has turned me into. i'm too fucking nice to people to their face. even when people are doing a bad job or being an asshole, rather than confront them, i just bitch to someone else and we have a little bitching session. to me, if i don't like someone, it's less enegry and just easier for me to be nice to them b/c ( Read more... )

i really should be asleep right now. somehow though, no matter what time i get home, even if it's 4:30 i can never go right to bed. i briefly entertained the idea of just staying up all night and getting some work done. briefly, until i remembered how tired i was. i've had an action-packed day. i took the stupid gre this morning. i did ok. i'm ( Read more... )

i think i'm feeling better now. calmer at least. i think it may be becuase i'm not at work. even though i'll have to make up the hours on sunday somehow not having to go there is such a relief. though i have to admit it has gotten a little better. i don't know if it's my new pursuit of positivity, optimism, and niceness, or that my bosses have ( Read more... )

i hate feeling like this. i don't even know what it is. i mean, i can guess. i'm under pressure right now to take the stupid gre and get into graduate school but so what, who isn't under pressure. i feel anxious and yucky all over. i'm tired and it's late, i have to be at work in less than eight hours but i can't even think about sleep right now. i ( Read more... )

i wish weekends were longer. they're wonderful. i truly despise my job now. it's not even worth getting into. basically the owners of my company are paranoid assholes who care about no one besides themselves. i should stop complaining and find a new job but there's only so many jobs for english majors in this college town. i could move somewhere ( Read more... )

i had a really depressing conversation with nick last night. our sex life has gotten ridiciously bad. it's my fault really, he's got a perfectly normal sex drive i'm just the one who never wants to have sex and not wanting to have sex w/ the person you're madly in love with isn't normal. part of me worries that i'm being selfish in making him stay ( Read more... )