yesterday isn't worth logging. i barely ate until supper and then i had cheesecake for dessert, then a blizzard later in the evening,  and then even later in the night, shrimp tempura. fat fat fatty.

ok so today? probably worse. let's see.
had one egg before running out the door this morning. then a mocha frappucino from starbucks before heading to ( Read more... )

203 lbs.

didn't i vow to myself that i would never get over 200 again? oops. way to go, fatty!

but just like i do every 6 months or so, i've become sick of it and am making changes (for the 8th time?).

$130 worth of healthy groceries later, i'm going to have to get used to feeling hungry again.

and since i know this isn't read by many, i'm going to use ( Read more... )

on monday, i threw my cell phone against the living room rug and subsequently cracked the external screen to shit ( Read more... )

currently, i need to divorce food. maybe not for good. or maybe for good? nah. not.. really.. possible.

meh i'm bored with this entry already.

life is weird... but i'm smiling.

JESS - i have a letter. i NEVER know what address to send it to. please contact me! email, comment, whatever. pleeeease. i was hoping to get a letter from you a while ago so i could use the return address on it, but no such luck.

 why do i lack motivation so much!

why why why why

the apple i packed in my lunch today was completely rotten. it was really disappointing. also disappointing is the fact that i didn't think to bring a snack for the afternoon. i have to resist binging when i get home, as i know i'm going to be cooking a kickass supper that i should wait and be hungry for ( Read more... )

you'd think after everything i've given him.. and done for him.. that he wouldn't leave me in this position. to be drunk on a saturday night, during a thunderstorm, with no one to chaperone me outside during the storm to ensure my safety (the smell of rain tempts me). and reaching out proves unsuccessful... for someone who maybe finally realized my ( Read more... )

 today there's a stupid BBQ at work for 3 hours. all classes are shortened, therefore making the day a living hell. plus i have to take my lunch an hour early. BLAST! i can't wait until later when dwayne and i can stroll over to Cousin's for a beer and a burger. the day looks glorious ( Read more... )

treat day at work = disaster.

my dietician will be ashamed.